Monthly Archives: September 2011

Neurofeedback and Nine Inch Nails

Posted on September 28, 2011 by

I woke up today and looked at the clock.  It read 1:07pm.  Fuck, I jumped out of bed, not like I was running that late (I had planned on getting up at 1), but I did not need the extra … Continue reading →

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Mindfulness and Connection

Posted on September 27, 2011 by

Monday, I woke up still depressed, majorly anxious about my appointment with Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan), and to top it all off, I had massive cramps.  At the appointment, we talked briefly about the whole Dr King (Integrated Psychiatric … Continue reading →

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From now on Im gonna do what I wanna do, As soon as I figure out what that is

Posted on September 27, 2011 by

Sunday, after I got done posting, I texted Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan), and told her that she could call me if she wanted (this was around 6:40pm).  I started going through my email, just trying to go about my … Continue reading →

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I Am Not Me Anymore, I Do Not Exist

Posted on September 25, 2011 by

After I posted and went through my email last night, I got off the computer and just laid in bed.  It was after 8pm, so I knew that I would have to text Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan) as soon … Continue reading →

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Thats All Life Really is, You Know? Pure Hell

Posted on September 24, 2011 by

For a moment it felt like maybe the deep depression that I have been feeling may have lifted slightly.  That maybe, I was headed into a little more of a positive phase, but by Thursday night it had become abundantly … Continue reading →

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Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 4

Posted on September 22, 2011 by

A continuation from Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 3 Jen called Toast to ask what had happened (sure that I had flipped out).  It must have been at the same time that Toast was on his way … Continue reading →

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Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 3

Posted on September 22, 2011 by

A Continuation from Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 2 This post (and the next) will be the hardest of the 4 for me to write.  I will be writing this from the second hand accounts that I … Continue reading →

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Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 2

Posted on September 21, 2011 by

A continuation from Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 1 Toast and I sat outside for what felt like for fucking ever.  I was extremely anxious and agitated, my legs bouncing all over the place, rocking back and … Continue reading →

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Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 1

Posted on September 21, 2011 by

Oh my god, you guys are literally not going to believe what happened today, but I suppose that I should start at the beginning.  1st, I dont know if I was just extremely exhausted (as in even more extremely exhausted … Continue reading →

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Tuesday – Neurofeedback

Posted on September 20, 2011 by

I had to get up at 11:30am, which I was not happy about (Im not usually up until 1 or 2pm).  I was, of course, incredibly anxious the whole time I was getting ready and waiting to leave.  At least … Continue reading →

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