Im feeling empty and hopeless tonight, agitated. These feelings have been tugging at my insides all day but Ive been fighting them off, ignoring them. I feel so fucking pointless. I dont feel real. I feel like crying. I feel like I need to fuck or fight. I feel like I need something to take me away from this life, take me away from myself, if even for just a little while. I want drugs, I want sex, I want a blade, I want to literally scratch my skin right the fuck off. I need something, I dont care what form it comes in, just fucking something. Something to help me breathe. Something to make me feel alive. I need to know that I truly am alive. I need to know that I am real. I need to know that all of this effort isnt in vain. I need to know that I am not all alone, but right now, mostly, I just really need some relief.
I appreciate your position and your thoughts. You are very special and I wish you a heart felt wish of peace and love within. I know my words alone are of little worth yet my heart felt wish is genuine and true! I hope that you may find a smile on your Beautiful face and at least for a moment some sense of relief!
Thank you
You are welcome! I feel your smile…:) Thank you for sharing it!
*hugs* I wish there was something I could do to help give you the relief you seek. xo.
thanks
i feel this same way always. i am a mother of 3 teenagers with an addiction that i fight everyday. Meetings don’t help reading AA big book don’t help.
Im sorry that you can relate. I guess all we can do is take things one day at a time.
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