Day 5: Something you hope to do in you life
http://hope.gr/30-days-of-truth/
There are just way too many things that I hope to do in my life so I think Im just going to post as list of a few of them. Im still not feeling very well, but I did want to get something posted today. So, in no particular order, and Im sure Ill be leaving a lot of things out, here are some of the things that I hope to do in my life.
1. Recover. I dont know exactly what that will look like, or even exactly what that means but it is my number 1 goal. All I really want is to learn how to live my life in a way that makes me happy. I want to know how to live a life worth living. Thats always been my biggest struggle, no matter how hard I try, and how much I improve, Ive never been able to lose that emptiness that makes me see everything as pointless. I want to live without assuming that I will someday commit suicide. I want to live a life where that thought isnt a constant fixture in my life. I guess I just want to learn to fully live, and be able to accept myself and things as they are, without obsessing about the past and the future. (As a side note to this, Id also like to see Toast “recover” as well, so that we can be healthy and happy together)
2. Travel. I simply would like to go everywhere and see everything.
3. This goes along with recovery, but to be able to live a healthy lifestyle without obsessing, and worrying about tripping and landing back in unhealthy behaviors regarding eating and working out.
4. Have happy and healthy children, enough said.
5. Sing in a band. Doesnt have to be anything spectacular, I just want to sing, and have my own music.
6. Write a book.
perhaps this will help your #1 and #3:
i became healthier when i stopped looking at exbulimic life as ‘recovery.’ in fact, i do not use the R words with respect to my life after the eating disorder. i’m not recovering. i’m not recovered. the R words are simply not allowed into my vocabulary.
“what is ‘recovery from an eating disorder?‘ i do not believe that recovery from an eating disorder can be defined. a person is bulimic or they are not bulimic; a person is anorectic or they are not anorectic; and a person is a binge eater or they are not a binge eater.
‘recovery from an eating disorder,‘ in my opinion, can only be interpreted. that interpretation is so unique to each person. person A views recovery as not bingeing and purging. person B views recovery as finding a spiritual connection, disconnecting emotion from food. person C views recovery as no longer counting calories. person D views recovery as adding back that half of a sandwich. i can go on and on and on and on. frankly, in addition to the interpretation controversy, i find that the R words have negative connotations, so i completely exclude them from my vocabulary. the glass is always completely full in my exbulimic life.”
the rest of my thoughts on this ‘recovery’ factor can be read here: http://nicoleandgwendolyn.com/the-legal-beagle/
I actually agree, generally when I use the word recovery I put it in quotes, for basically the same reasons you dont use it at all. The only reason I use it is because there isnt really a word for what I would like, so I just use recover in quotes.
Me 1 and 6. I work on 6 at times and lately at 1.
I am with you on many of these points. I’d love to sing in a group or band. I am working on both 1 and 3. They take a lot of work. I need money for 2 and 4.
Same with me, the money thing for 2 and 4 that is