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Category Archives: Agitation
Exhaustion, Shopping and Hot Fudge
Friday, I woke to depression and severe agitation. Toast came home and took the dogs out shortly after I got up, and he was telling about what he had done so far (who he had called and what he had … Continue reading
Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, eating disorders, Health, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged addiction, agitation, agoraphobia, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, compulsive over eating, dehydration, depression, dizzy, eating disorders, exhaustion, Health, hypoglycemia, Lorazepam, Major depressive disorder, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, shopping, sister, slurring speach, social anxiety, Supernatural, weak
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Hanging on the Edge of Sanity
Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals. Content contains self harm and suicidal ideation. All day Thursday I felt completely drained, exhausted and overwhelmed. My head was all over the place and I was most definitely not doing … Continue reading
Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, mental health, mental illness, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Uncategorized
Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, depression, Dialectical behavior therapy, emotionally unstable, empty, inpatient programs for BPD, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, Molly Raaymakers, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, overwhelmed, panic, panic attack, rage, Rebecca Royston, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, suicidal ideation
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I Am Not Me Anymore, I Do Not Exist
After I posted and went through my email last night, I got off the computer and just laid in bed. It was after 8pm, so I knew that I would have to text Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan) as soon … Continue reading
Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, eating disorders, mental health, mental illness, Movies, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, Bridesmaids movie, DBT, DBT Centers of Michigan, depression, Dialectical behavior therapy, empty, failure, fear of talking on the phone, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, overwhelmed, panic, Rebecca Royston, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, tattoo artist
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Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 2
A continuation from Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 1 Toast and I sat outside for what felt like for fucking ever. I was extremely anxious and agitated, my legs bouncing all over the place, rocking back and … Continue reading
Posted in Abuse, Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Health, mental health, mental illness, OCD, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, control, cop car, DBT Centers of Michigan, Dr Carolyn King, emotionally unstable, Family, fear of talking on the phone, Fuck, Health, Intergrated Psychiatric Medicine, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, overwhelmed, panic, paranioa, police, psychiatrist, psychotherapy, rage, Rebecca Royston, repetive thoughts, Satan, sister
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Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 1
Oh my god, you guys are literally not going to believe what happened today, but I suppose that I should start at the beginning. 1st, I dont know if I was just extremely exhausted (as in even more extremely exhausted … Continue reading
Posted in Abuse, Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Health, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, Ativan tolerance, Benzodiazepine withdrawal syndrome, borderline personality disorder, BPD, breathe right strips, control, DBT Centers of Michigan, detox, Dr Carolyn King, Family, Insomnia, Integrated Psychiatric Medicine, Lorazepam, magnesium, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, Molly Raaymakers, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, overwhelmed, Pine Rest, psychotherapy, Rebecca Royston, sister, Sleep, social anxiety, Turning Point, West Michigan
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Tuesday – Neurofeedback
I had to get up at 11:30am, which I was not happy about (Im not usually up until 1 or 2pm). I was, of course, incredibly anxious the whole time I was getting ready and waiting to leave. At least … Continue reading
Posted in Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, Holistic Health, mental health, mental illness, Neurofeedback, personality disorders, Science, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged addiction, agitation, anxiety, Ativan, Ativan withdrawal, benzodiazepine withdrawal, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, depression, Dr Carolyn King, Health, Holistic health, inflammation, Integrated Psychiatric Medicine, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, Molly Raaymakers, neurofeedback, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, Rebecca Royston, West Michigan
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Monday – 4 Makes a Crowd
Molly (Nuerotherapy Associates of West Michigan) called at around 12pm to change my neurofeedback appointment time from 2pm to 1pm on Tuesday. Our appointment with Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan) wasnt until 4pm, so I wasnt planning on getting up … Continue reading
Posted in Abuse, Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, Holistic Health, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, benzodiazepine withdrawal, Big C, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Cente, depression, emotionally unstable, Family, invalidation, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, Molly Raaymakers, Monk, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, overwhelmed, panic, psychotherapy, rage, Rebecca Royston, sister, Sleep, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, validation, Weeds, West Michigan
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Depression Continues to Engulf Me
Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals. Content contains suicidal ideation and self harm. I am not doing well. The depression that I was feeling yesterday continued and continues to engulf me. I am completely unstable, my mood … Continue reading
Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, eating disorders, mental health, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, binging, borderline personality disorder, BPD, compulsive overeating, cry, DBT Centers of Michigan, Dialectical behavior therapy, emotionally unstable, empty, fear, Kiera Van Gelder, mental health, mental illness, overwhelmed, psychotherapy, rage, Rebecca Royston, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, The Buddha and The Borderline
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I Feel Like Im going to F*cking Break
I havent much to share today, so this post should be fairly short (probably a much needed break from my usually very long and wordy posts). Im feeling extremely depressed, empty and alone today. I dont think I will see … Continue reading
Posted in Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Holistic Health, mental health, mental illness, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Phobias, Psychotherapy, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged agitation, anxiety, Ativan, Ativan withdrawal, benzodiazepine withdrawal, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, depression, Effexor withdrawal, emotionally unstable, empty, Family, fear of talking on the phone, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, neurofeedback, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, overwhelmed, panic, Point of Return, psychotherapy, Rebecca Royston, sister, social anxiety, West Michigan
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When in Torture, Pure Hell, and Suicide Seems Like the Only Way Out
“…This is my second encounter with the idea that our internal experience can be characterized by a defining emotion, not just “instability”. As Marsha Linehan says, were like emotional burn victims (Cognitive-Behavioral Treatment of Borderline Personality Disorder). Dr Zanarini ( … Continue reading
Posted in Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, reality, relationships, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, Ativan withdrawal, binging, borderline personality disorder, BPD, Cognitive-Behavioral Treatment of Borderline Personality Disorder, compulsive overeating, dead inside, depression, derealization, Dr. Zanarini, eating disorders, Emotion, emotional pain, emotionally unstable, empty, exhaustion, explosive temper, Family, Kiera Van Gelder, Lorazepam, Marsha Linehan, Marsha M. Linehan, mental health, mental illness, Point of Return, psychological pain, self harm, self injury, sister, suicidal ideation, suicide, The Buddha and The Borderline, The pain of bieng borderline: Dysphoric states specific to Borderline Personality Disorder, winter
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