Pages
-
Recent Posts
Archives
dates of posts
-
Blog Stats
- 71,655 hits
Blogroll
- "You know your borderline when…"
- …But Shes Crazy
- 42nd Chance
- A Hot Night in Joon
- aloeverasol
- Amazing Lucidity
- And so it begins…
- Angels Blog
- areelingmind
- As the Pendulum Swings
- awakeningpsyche
- Berlin Chair
- Beyond Meds
- Beyond the Strom…
- Borderline girl lives here
- BPD is stil lme
- Creating Within
- cribbings
- Day In The Life Of A Busy Gal…
- Diary of a cheating whore
- Diary of a Sagittarius
- Effortlessly Perfect
- elizadolly
- Everyone has a story
- Fiona
- Half way between the gutter and the stars
- Hello Sailor
- Hope in sad endings
- Hotel Muse
- How Kaycee Got Her Flow Back
- http://mmstores.wordpress.com/
- I am for change
- I was just thinking…
- If Only
- In Trinzic Value
- into mind
- Into the heart
- Journal of a mad man
- katieinwonderlandx
- Kissing the cockroach
- Le Clown On Fire
- little black sandals saved my life today
- Lollirot
- looking for a purpose
- Lost in the winterness
- Love and a six-foot leash
- Love Sex and Marriage
- Lucid View
- maggirmaeijustsaythis
- Mew Tube
- Mindfuckery
- Miss Mental Health
- Mm172001
- My Life As A Basketcase
- My Own Private Universe
- myendlessreasons
- Nicole and Gwendolyn
- Not Quite Dead
- On the border
- Organized Chaos
- Overcoming Self Destruction
- Panic Monster
- Peace the consciousness, the transistoriness, your existence
- PHUKTNEUROTIC
- Pride in maddness
- Ramblings of My BPD and Recovery
- Recovery Roundabouts
- Sarah on the go
- Scattered Freathers, Answered Chaos
- Seriosome
- sessions along the meandering mind
- Sex thisyear
- She Shine On
- Slightly Disordered
- snippets and glimpses
- Struggling with bipolar
- Sunny with a chance of armageddon
- Tales of a charm city chick
- The Agoraphobic Blog
- The Art of Making it Out Alive
- The Bipolar Place
- The Demons of My Insane Sanity
- The Dissemination of Thought
- The life you save may be your own
- The Mirth of Despair
- The Secret Life of a Call Girl
- The Tale of My Heart
- Thee Truth Is
- Untitled Moments
- Ventose
- Weathering the Storm: Overcoming Bipolar Disorder
- What is depression?
- Wildflowers Movement
Categories
- 10 Day You Challenge
- 30 Day Challenge
- 30 Days of Truth
- Abuse
- Addiction
- Agitation
- Alphabet Soundtrack
- Animal Cruelty
- Anxiety
- Anxiety Disorders
- Art
- ArtPrize
- Beliefs
- Blog for Mental Health 2012
- Blogger of the Month Award
- Borderline Personality Disorder
- BPD and me
- BPD Blogs
- Brandon Marshall and BPD
- Christmas
- Cocaine
- comments
- community mental health
- DBT
- Depression
- Dreams
- eating disorders
- Energy
- general life
- Health
- Holidays
- Holistic Health
- Infertility
- Kreativ Blogger Award
- Liebster Blog Award
- Lyrics
- mental health
- Mental Health Disability
- mental illness
- Mother Issues
- Movies
- Music
- Neurofeedback
- Obsession
- OCD
- Panic Disorders
- personality disorders
- philosophy
- Phobias
- Pit Bull
- poetry
- prose
- Psychotherapy
- reality
- relationships
- Religion
- Science
- self harm
- self injury
- self mutilation
- sex
- Sexual Identity
- Sexual orientation
- Showtime shows
- Side Effects of Ativan
- society
- Songs
- Spitituality
- Sports
- Substance Abuse
- Suicide
- Tattoos
- Television programs
- Tell Me About Yourself Award
- Thanksgiving
- The Versatile Blogger Award
- The Very Inspiring Blogger Award
- Uncategorized
- United States of Tara
- United States of Tara cancellation
- Vacation
- Vetinary Medicine
- Video Blogs
- Vlogs
- Wicca
- Withdrawal
- Zoos
Tags
addiction agitation anger anxiety anxoius Ativan borderline personality disorder BPD control DBT Centers of Michigan depressed depression Dialectical behavior therapy Disorders emotionally unstable empty exhaustion Family Health Insomnia Lorazepam medication mental health mental illness Michigan money Music overwhelmed panic panic attack paranioa poverty psychotherapy rage Rebecca Royston self harm self injury self mutilation sex sister Sleep social anxiety suicide therapy ThoughtMeta
Through My Eyes: Adventures in Borderline Land
Category Archives: Anxiety
The Anxiety Revelation
Monday, I woke up at 11:30am to pee. I was exhausted. I tried to go back to sleep and Toast got a text from someone at 12. At this point, I was full of rage. I was still angry from … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, DBT, Uncategorized
Tagged anxiety, DBT, DBT Centers of Michigan, Dialectical behavior therapy, Lorazepam, Michigan, Molly Raaymakers, neurofeedback, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, Rebecca Royston, skills training, West Michigan
4 Comments
Exhaustion, Shopping and Hot Fudge
Friday, I woke to depression and severe agitation. Toast came home and took the dogs out shortly after I got up, and he was telling about what he had done so far (who he had called and what he had … Continue reading
Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, eating disorders, Health, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged addiction, agitation, agoraphobia, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, compulsive over eating, dehydration, depression, dizzy, eating disorders, exhaustion, Health, hypoglycemia, Lorazepam, Major depressive disorder, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, shopping, sister, slurring speach, social anxiety, Supernatural, weak
6 Comments
Hanging on the Edge of Sanity
Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals. Content contains self harm and suicidal ideation. All day Thursday I felt completely drained, exhausted and overwhelmed. My head was all over the place and I was most definitely not doing … Continue reading
Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, mental health, mental illness, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Uncategorized
Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, depression, Dialectical behavior therapy, emotionally unstable, empty, inpatient programs for BPD, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, Molly Raaymakers, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, overwhelmed, panic, panic attack, rage, Rebecca Royston, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, suicidal ideation
3 Comments
What is the Appropriate Way to Bring Animal Cruelty to the Public Eye? – Part 2
Wednesday, my mom got home from work at about 2pm, and proceeded to start yelling with the objective of waking me up. Seeing as to how Im rarely asleep before 5am, and I am extremely exhausted, my plan had been … Continue reading
Posted in Abuse, Animal Cruelty, Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, Uncategorized
Tagged anger, Animal Cruelty, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, Dialectical behavior therapy, emotional triggers, empty, exhaustion, Facebook, Family, Loss of a pet, Major depressive disorder, mental health, mental illness, mindfulness, New Girl, panic attack, psychological triggers, Rebecca Royston, Thought
6 Comments
What is the Appropriate Way to Bring Animal Cruelty to the Public Eye? – Part 1
I have not had the time to post since Tuesday, which means that I am entirely way to overwhelmed and a complete wreck thinking about posting right now. Which follows suit because I have pretty much been entirely way to … Continue reading
Posted in Abuse, Anxiety, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, Uncategorized
Tagged Activism, anger, Animal Cruelty, Animal Rights, Animal welfare, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, Cruelty to animals, depression, dog, emotional triggers, Facebook, mental health, mental illness, overwhelmed, Petition, psychological triggers
5 Comments
Mindfulness and Connection
Monday, I woke up still depressed, majorly anxious about my appointment with Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan), and to top it all off, I had massive cramps. At the appointment, we talked briefly about the whole Dr King (Integrated Psychiatric … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Infertility, mental health, mental illness, Uncategorized
Tagged anxiety, Big C, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, Deb Spoors, depression, Dialectical behavior therapy, Dr Carolyn King, emotional connection, hope, in vitro fertilization, infertility, Integrated Psychiatric Medicine, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, mindfulness, Monk, Netflix, pain, panic attack, parallel dimension, paranioa, Rebecca Royston, Third Coast Counseling, Weeds
7 Comments
From now on Im gonna do what I wanna do, As soon as I figure out what that is
Sunday, after I got done posting, I texted Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan), and told her that she could call me if she wanted (this was around 6:40pm). I started going through my email, just trying to go about my … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, mental health, mental illness, Movies, Uncategorized
Tagged anxiety, Bisexuality, borderline personality disorder, BPD, Cherry the movie, DBT Centers of Michigan, depression, fear if talking on the phone, mental health, mental illness, panic, Pansexuality, Rebecca Royston, social anxiety, Supernatural
7 Comments
I Am Not Me Anymore, I Do Not Exist
After I posted and went through my email last night, I got off the computer and just laid in bed. It was after 8pm, so I knew that I would have to text Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan) as soon … Continue reading
Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, eating disorders, mental health, mental illness, Movies, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, Bridesmaids movie, DBT, DBT Centers of Michigan, depression, Dialectical behavior therapy, empty, failure, fear of talking on the phone, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, overwhelmed, panic, Rebecca Royston, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, tattoo artist
8 Comments
Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 4
A continuation from Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 3 Jen called Toast to ask what had happened (sure that I had flipped out). It must have been at the same time that Toast was on his way … Continue reading
Posted in Abuse, Addiction, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Health, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged abuse of power, addiction, anger, anxiety, Ativan, Benzodiazepine withdrawal syndrome, borderline personality disorder, BPD, community mental health, control, Dr Carolyn King, Family, Health, inpatient facility, Integrated Psychiatric Medicine, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, narcissistic personality disorder, Network 180, overwhelmed, panic, paranioa, Pine Rest, police, psychiatric hospital, psychiatrist, Psychiatry, psychotherapy, sister
13 Comments
Thats All Life Really is, You Know? Pure Hell
For a moment it felt like maybe the deep depression that I have been feeling may have lifted slightly. That maybe, I was headed into a little more of a positive phase, but by Thursday night it had become abundantly … Continue reading →