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Category Archives: Anxiety Disorders
Living with Chains Wrapped Around Your Rib Cage
After I posted on Sunday about my panic over my new therapy schedule (No Control, No Options), Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan) sent me another email. She asked that I come in Tuesday, as planned, and that we would brainstorm and … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, Uncategorized
Tagged anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, dreams, Human rib cage, infertility, Michigan, Molly Raaymakers, neurofeedback, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, panic, uselessness, West Michigan, worhtlessness
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Its Crazy How Much People Take For Granted That I Can Not
This post will be short. I really dont have much to tell. Im still sick as a dog (where does that expression come from? In my experience dogs rarely ever get sick). Anyway, I had one small incident happen yesterday … Continue reading
Neurofeedback? Yes, I May be a Believer
Well, Im sick, which is awesome (yeah not, really though). A couple of days ago Toast started coughing uncontrollably. I told him he better not get me sick, but alas he (and my immune system) did not listen. Yesterday I … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, DBT, Neurofeedback, OCD, Uncategorized
Tagged anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, EEG, mental health, Michigan, Molly Raaymakers, neurofeedback, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, Rebecca Royston, sick, social anxiety, Thought, United States of Tara, West Michigan, worsening anxiety at night
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I Hate Feeling So Weak and Powerless
I was supposed to go with my sister to Gabbys dance class yesterday. Once a month they have “watch night” where parents can go and observe the class (I went with Jen 2 years ago, before we went to Arizona). … Continue reading
The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly…Well, Mostly The Ugly
As some of you might have noticed (or maybe not), I havent posted in a while. This is because over the past few days I have been a complete wreck, a total mess, that is to say that I have … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD Blogs, Depression, eating disorders, Uncategorized
Tagged anger, anxiety, binging, borderline personality disorder, BPD, control, depression, emotional dysregulation, emotionally unstable, ice cream, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, obsess, overwhelmed, pain, validation
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The Woman Makes No Sense
Before getting to the actual topic of this post (which will be Dr King, yet again), I wanted to give you a brief update as to how Ive been since I last posted. I finally forced myself to shower yesterday … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, mental health, mental illness, Psychotherapy, reality, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, Dialectical behavior therapy, Dr Carolyn King, Integrated Psychiatric Medicine, Lorazepam, medical records, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, overwhelmed, psychiatrist, psychotherapy, reality
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Nuerofeedback and DBT
Yesterday I had both my nuerofeedback appointment with Molly (Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan) and my therapy appointment with Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan). So, needless to say, it was a very anxious day for me. On top of all … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Neurofeedback, Psychotherapy, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged addiction, anxiety, Ativan, Ativan withdrawal, Bones, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, Dialectical behavior therapy, exhaustion, financial, GABA, Harvest Health, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, Miss Nobody, Molly Raaymakers, neurofeedback, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, Nine Inch Nails, overwhelmed, poverty, psychotherapy, Rebecca Royston, Transformers 3, West Michigan, With Teeth
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Sex and ArtPrize
Sunday, my family (my dad, me, Toast, Jen, Matt and Ava) went to ArtPrize (Gabby was with her bio mom, and mom cant do that much walking, she needs new knees, so they werent able to go with us). It … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety Disorders, Art, ArtPrize, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Panic Disorders, Phobias, sex, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, art, ArtPrize, Ativan, Bones, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, Dexter, empty, fear, Grand Rapids Michigan, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, Rebecca Royston, relationships, sex, shame, Showtime, social anxiety, Subway
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I Am Not Me Anymore, I Do Not Exist
After I posted and went through my email last night, I got off the computer and just laid in bed. It was after 8pm, so I knew that I would have to text Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan) as soon … Continue reading
Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, eating disorders, mental health, mental illness, Movies, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, Bridesmaids movie, DBT, DBT Centers of Michigan, depression, Dialectical behavior therapy, empty, failure, fear of talking on the phone, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, overwhelmed, panic, Rebecca Royston, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, tattoo artist
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Thats All Life Really is, You Know? Pure Hell
For a moment it felt like maybe the deep depression that I have been feeling may have lifted slightly. That maybe, I was headed into a little more of a positive phase, but by Thursday night it had become abundantly … Continue reading →