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Category Archives: Art
3rd Ward Open Call
ryan ensign – 3rd Ward Open Call. Toast has asked me to share this link to an art contest that he is entered in. We would appreciate it if anyone who is interested follows the link and votes for his … Continue reading
Posted in Art, Uncategorized
Tagged 3rd Ward, 3rd Ward Open, Art contest, Arts, Contests, nude art, paintings, Photography, Prize, Toast Ensign
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Sex and ArtPrize
Sunday, my family (my dad, me, Toast, Jen, Matt and Ava) went to ArtPrize (Gabby was with her bio mom, and mom cant do that much walking, she needs new knees, so they werent able to go with us). It … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety Disorders, Art, ArtPrize, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Panic Disorders, Phobias, sex, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, art, ArtPrize, Ativan, Bones, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, Dexter, empty, fear, Grand Rapids Michigan, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, Rebecca Royston, relationships, sex, shame, Showtime, social anxiety, Subway
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Crazy, Stupid, Love a.k.a. I am Completely Unstable, and Dont Know What to do
So, yesterday Toast and I were supposed to have this great day (I shouldve known better. Whenever I have high expectations, its pretty much inevitable that I will be disappointed). My sister and Matt had gone to the theater to … Continue reading
Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, Holistic Health, mental health, mental illness, Mother Issues, Movies, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, relationships, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, Crazy Stupid Love, Emma Stone, emotionally unstable, empty, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, neurofeedback, overwhelmed, Panera Bread, panic, psychotherapy, rage, sister, suicidal ideation, suicide, tattoo artist, The Big C, The Notebook, Thor, Weeds, X-Men 1st Class
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From Bad to Worse to Being Sedated and Subdued by Hospital Security – Part 2
Warning : The following 4 part post may be triggering for some individuals, content contains suicidal ideation and self harm. I also ask that there be no judgement of me. I am letting you take a look inside of my … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety, Art, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, community mental health, Depression, mental health, mental illness, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged abandonment issues, addiction, anxiety, Ativan, benzodiazepine withdrawal, borderline personality disorder, BPD, community mental health, depression, Diazepam, Dr Carolyn King, emotionally unstable, empty, Family, fear of abandonment, Integrated Ph, Lorazepam, medicall malpractice lawsuit, mental health, mental illness, Monk, Network 180, overwhelmed, panic, paranioa, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, sister, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, suicide, Thought, True Blood, Turning Point detox, Valium
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From Bad to Worse to Being Sedated and Subdued by Hospital Security – Part 1
Warning : The following 4 part post may be triggering for some individuals, content contains suicidal ideation and self harm. I also ask that there be no judgement of me. I am letting you take a look inside of my … Continue reading
Posted in Abuse, Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, community mental health, Depression, mental health, mental illness, Obsession, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Side Effects of Ativan, Suicide, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged abandonment issues, addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, control, depression, deviantArt, Disorders, dog, emotionally unstable, empty, exhaustion, Family, fear of abandonment, frantic efforts to avoid real of imaginged abandonment, gothscene.com, irrational thought, Lorazepam, manuipulation, mental health, mental illness, Monk, overwhelmed, rage, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, sister, suicidal ideation, suicide, Thought, Understanding
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Monday – News From the Psychiatrist and My Appointment
I woke up in a bad mood today. I didnt feel like I was going to have enough time to get what I needed to get done, done before my appointment with Becky (DBT Centers Of Michigan), which I ended … Continue reading
Posted in Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, reality, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, antiepileptics, anxiety, Ativan, Benzodiazepine, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT, DBT Centers of Michigan, Dialectical behavior therapy, Diazepam, Dr Carolyn King, emotionally unstable, gsbapentin, Lorazepam, medication, mental health, mental illness, neurontin, overwhelmed, panic, psychotherapy, Rebeccan Royston, social anxiety, suicide, Valium
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Part 2 – The Appointment and the Aftermath So Far
Warning : Post may be triggering for some individuals. Contains mention of self harm and suicidal ideation. A continuation from Part 1 – Last Night and This Morning Leading up to My Appointment Now from this point on, my memory … Continue reading
Posted in Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, mental health, mental illness, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Side Effects of Ativan, Suicide, Uncategorized
Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, Ativan tolerance, borderline personality disorder, BPD, control, depression, Disorders, Dr Carolyn King, emotionally unstable, empty, Family, healthy coping mechanisms, Lorazepam, medication, mental health, mental illness, overwhelmed, panic, psychiatrist, psychotherapy, rage, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Singing, sister, social anxiety, Subway, suicidal ideation, suicide, therapy, withdrawal
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The Child Inside My Mind
I had an idea as to what I would be posting about today. Ever since that decision my emotions have been bouncing all over the place, so dont be surprised if this post is somewhat random. I think Ill try … Continue reading
Posted in Abuse, Art, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, Uncategorized
Tagged anger, anxiety, art, black and white thinking, borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, Emotion, emotionally unstable, empty, fear, fear of abandonment, Get Me Out of Here: My Recovery from Borderline Personality Disorder, inner child, mental health, mental illness, Photography, psychotherapy, recovery, rejection, sister, splitting, temper tantrums, Thought, unconditional love
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The Switch Inside My Brain
So, you know that switch in my brain that Im always talking about? The one that flips up and down between positive and negative, and seems to control my reactions to things, and therefore my behaviors? Well, it appears to … Continue reading
Posted in Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, reality, relationships, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized
Tagged addiction, agitation, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, change, control, Darren West, drawings, Lorazepam, medication, mental health, mental illness, motivation, obsession, overwhelmed, paintings, panic, Photography, Pit Bull, sex, sister, starving artist, Thought, Worry
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Facebook page, and Brief Update
Im still not feeling well, Im dizzy and I have a headache, and I am also feeling short on time. Jens not coming over today, so I should have time to get things done, but I am really far behind … Continue reading
Posted in Art, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, poetry, prose, Uncategorized
Tagged Arts, beauty, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT, Dialectical behavior therapy, Facebook, identity, mental health, mental illness, poem, poetry, positivity, prose, Social Networking, starving artist, therapy, unstable identity
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