Category Archives: Beliefs

What is the Appropriate Way to Bring Animal Cruelty to the Public Eye? – Part 1

Posted on October 1, 2011 by

I have not had the time to post since Tuesday, which means that I am entirely way to overwhelmed and a complete wreck thinking about posting right now.  Which follows suit because I have pretty much been entirely way to … Continue reading →

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Thats All Life Really is, You Know? Pure Hell

Posted on September 24, 2011 by

For a moment it felt like maybe the deep depression that I have been feeling may have lifted slightly.  That maybe, I was headed into a little more of a positive phase, but by Thursday night it had become abundantly … Continue reading →

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What do I Recover?

Posted on September 14, 2011 by

“…the whole concept of “recovery” brings up some painful questions.  What do I recover?  With drug addiction, you hear that you can recover and reclaim your former self, the person you were before you started using.  With other psychiatric illnesses, … Continue reading →

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From Bad to Worse to Being Sedated and Subdued by Hospital Security – Part 4

Posted on September 12, 2011 by

Warning : The following 4 part post may be triggering for some individuals, content contains suicidal ideation and self harm.  I also ask that there be no judgement of me.  I am letting you take a look inside of my … Continue reading →

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From Bad to Worse to Being Sedated and Subdued by Hospital Security – Part 2

Posted on September 11, 2011 by

Warning : The following 4 part post may be triggering for some individuals, content contains suicidal ideation and self harm.  I also ask that there be no judgement of me.  I am letting you take a look inside of my … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Art, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, community mental health, Depression, mental health, mental illness, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 5 Comments

From Bad to Worse to Being Sedated and Subdued by Hospital Security – Part 1

Posted on September 11, 2011 by

Warning : The following 4 part post may be triggering for some individuals, content contains suicidal ideation and self harm.  I also ask that there be no judgement of me.  I am letting you take a look inside of my … Continue reading →

Posted in Abuse, Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, community mental health, Depression, mental health, mental illness, Obsession, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Side Effects of Ativan, Suicide, Uncategorized, Withdrawal | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 15 Comments

Saturday Night – Sexual Frustration, Goth Chicks, and the Hope of Cocaine

Posted on September 6, 2011 by

A shit ton of stuff has happened since I last posted, so I am feeling a bit (ok, a lot) overwhelmed about attempting to post right now.  Because I am me, and I cant just skip over some of what … Continue reading →

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Reality is Only What You Perceive it to be

Posted on September 3, 2011 by

Warning:  Post may be triggering for some individuals. I woke up around 7:30 this morning in the middle of a panic attack (I absolutely hate when this happens, but at least its been a while).  I couldnt stop thinking about … Continue reading →

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I Really Do Wish I Could Just Disappear

Posted on September 1, 2011 by

Over the past few days my mood has not improved much (or really at all), and my thought processes are still not right.  So, I guess Ill just go ahead and start where we last left off.  Tuesday night, after … Continue reading →

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Detach, Detach, I Must Detach, I Will Not Let My Emotions Win

Posted on August 30, 2011 by

Im feeling kind of weird.  My thoughts processes have been a bit off all day.  I wasnt planning on posting today, but I was just filled with the overwhelming need to get some of this out of me, so here … Continue reading →

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