Category Archives: BPD Blogs

I Am Not Hiding Behind Fear Anymore

Posted on November 1, 2011 by

You may have noticed that I havent done a regular post in a while, Ive just been posting for the 10 day you challenge.  Thats because for most of the week (since my last real post I Am So F*cked Up, … Continue reading →

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I am Worthless, Pointless, and Hopeless

Posted on October 11, 2011 by

Warning: This post may be triggering to some individuals.  Content contains self harm and suicidal ideation. We didnt get up until about 2:45pm on Sunday.  Toast got out of bed, and I could instantly tell that he was pissed, he … Continue reading →

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The Shadow That I Have Become

Posted on October 11, 2011 by

Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals.  Content contains some mention of self harm, and suicidal ideation. Saturday morning, before Toast left for work, I did not kiss him, tell him I love him, or say goodbye to … Continue reading →

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The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly…Well, Mostly The Ugly

Posted on October 11, 2011 by

As some of  you might have noticed (or maybe not), I havent posted in a while.  This is because over the past few days I have been a complete wreck, a total mess, that is to say that I have … Continue reading →

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The Woman Makes No Sense

Posted on October 7, 2011 by

Before getting to the actual topic of this post (which will be Dr King, yet again), I wanted to give you a brief update as to how Ive been since I last posted.  I finally forced myself to shower yesterday … Continue reading →

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Loving Someone with BPD

Posted on October 5, 2011 by

I dont have a whole lot to say today, but I thought I would give you an update anyway (because I probably wont have time to post tomorrow).  I have tried doing the exercises (DBT Self Help, Instant Mindfulness) that … Continue reading →

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Nuerofeedback and DBT

Posted on October 4, 2011 by

Yesterday I had both my nuerofeedback appointment with Molly (Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan) and my therapy appointment with Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan).  So, needless to say, it was a very anxious day for me. On top of all … Continue reading →

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Sex and ArtPrize

Posted on October 4, 2011 by

Sunday, my family (my dad, me, Toast, Jen, Matt and Ava) went to ArtPrize (Gabby was with her bio mom, and mom cant do that much walking, she needs new knees, so they werent able to go with us).  It … Continue reading →

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Exhaustion, Shopping and Hot Fudge

Posted on October 2, 2011 by

Friday, I woke to depression and severe agitation.  Toast came home and took the dogs out shortly after I got up, and he was telling about what he had done so far (who he had called and what he had … Continue reading →

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Hanging on the Edge of Sanity

Posted on October 2, 2011 by

Warning:  This post may be triggering for some individuals.  Content contains self harm and suicidal ideation. All day Thursday I felt completely drained, exhausted and overwhelmed.  My head was all over the place and I was most definitely not doing … Continue reading →

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