Category Archives: Depression

The Shadow That I Have Become

Posted on October 11, 2011 by

Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals.  Content contains some mention of self harm, and suicidal ideation. Saturday morning, before Toast left for work, I did not kiss him, tell him I love him, or say goodbye to … Continue reading →

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The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly…Well, Mostly The Ugly

Posted on October 11, 2011 by

As some of  you might have noticed (or maybe not), I havent posted in a while.  This is because over the past few days I have been a complete wreck, a total mess, that is to say that I have … Continue reading →

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Exhaustion, Shopping and Hot Fudge

Posted on October 2, 2011 by

Friday, I woke to depression and severe agitation.  Toast came home and took the dogs out shortly after I got up, and he was telling about what he had done so far (who he had called and what he had … Continue reading →

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Hanging on the Edge of Sanity

Posted on October 2, 2011 by

Warning:  This post may be triggering for some individuals.  Content contains self harm and suicidal ideation. All day Thursday I felt completely drained, exhausted and overwhelmed.  My head was all over the place and I was most definitely not doing … Continue reading →

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What is the Appropriate Way to Bring Animal Cruelty to the Public Eye? – Part 2

Posted on October 1, 2011 by

Wednesday, my mom got home from work at about 2pm, and proceeded to start yelling with the objective of waking me up.  Seeing as to how Im rarely asleep before 5am, and I am extremely exhausted, my plan had been … Continue reading →

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What is the Appropriate Way to Bring Animal Cruelty to the Public Eye? – Part 1

Posted on October 1, 2011 by

I have not had the time to post since Tuesday, which means that I am entirely way to overwhelmed and a complete wreck thinking about posting right now.  Which follows suit because I have pretty much been entirely way to … Continue reading →

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I Am Not Me Anymore, I Do Not Exist

Posted on September 25, 2011 by

After I posted and went through my email last night, I got off the computer and just laid in bed.  It was after 8pm, so I knew that I would have to text Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan) as soon … Continue reading →

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Thats All Life Really is, You Know? Pure Hell

Posted on September 24, 2011 by

For a moment it felt like maybe the deep depression that I have been feeling may have lifted slightly.  That maybe, I was headed into a little more of a positive phase, but by Thursday night it had become abundantly … Continue reading →

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Tuesday – Neurofeedback

Posted on September 20, 2011 by

I had to get up at 11:30am, which I was not happy about (Im not usually up until 1 or 2pm).  I was, of course, incredibly anxious the whole time I was getting ready and waiting to leave.  At least … Continue reading →

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Monday – 4 Makes a Crowd

Posted on September 20, 2011 by

Molly (Nuerotherapy Associates of West Michigan) called at around 12pm to change my neurofeedback appointment time from 2pm to 1pm on Tuesday.  Our appointment with Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan) wasnt until 4pm, so I wasnt planning on getting up … Continue reading →

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