Category Archives: eating disorders

How I Know My Mom Loves Me

Posted on December 1, 2011 by

I had kind of an odd experience with my mom yesterday.  1st she asked me if I needed anything from the store.  I was totally caught off guard by this, she never asks me if I need something from the … Continue reading →

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The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly…Well, Mostly The Ugly

Posted on October 11, 2011 by

As some of  you might have noticed (or maybe not), I havent posted in a while.  This is because over the past few days I have been a complete wreck, a total mess, that is to say that I have … Continue reading →

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Exhaustion, Shopping and Hot Fudge

Posted on October 2, 2011 by

Friday, I woke to depression and severe agitation.  Toast came home and took the dogs out shortly after I got up, and he was telling about what he had done so far (who he had called and what he had … Continue reading →

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I Am Not Me Anymore, I Do Not Exist

Posted on September 25, 2011 by

After I posted and went through my email last night, I got off the computer and just laid in bed.  It was after 8pm, so I knew that I would have to text Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan) as soon … Continue reading →

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Thats All Life Really is, You Know? Pure Hell

Posted on September 24, 2011 by

For a moment it felt like maybe the deep depression that I have been feeling may have lifted slightly.  That maybe, I was headed into a little more of a positive phase, but by Thursday night it had become abundantly … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, eating disorders, Infertility, mental health, mental illness, Obsession, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, relationships, Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 6 Comments

Depression Continues to Engulf Me

Posted on September 18, 2011 by

Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals.  Content contains suicidal ideation and self harm. I am not doing well.  The depression that I was feeling yesterday continued and continues to engulf me.  I am completely unstable, my mood … Continue reading →

Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, eating disorders, mental health, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 10 Comments

I Really Do Wish I Could Just Disappear

Posted on September 1, 2011 by

Over the past few days my mood has not improved much (or really at all), and my thought processes are still not right.  So, I guess Ill just go ahead and start where we last left off.  Tuesday night, after … Continue reading →

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All of this Over a F*cking Brownie?

Posted on August 19, 2011 by

I dont even want to write this post because it is so completely and utterly ridiculous, but it is my life, it is what I do.  Another case of a bunch of things coming together and combining just right, and … Continue reading →

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Music, OCD, and Pandora Radio

Posted on August 7, 2011 by

I decided to add a small dose (1/4mg) of Ativan between my 2nd and 3rd doses yesterday, and I didnt experience as much irritability and agitation last night (I did make it to bed by 2am again, by the way).  … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, eating disorders, mental health, mental illness, Music, OCD, personality disorders, poetry, prose, reality, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 7 Comments

Are Emotional Abuse and Neglect Trauma?

Posted on August 3, 2011 by

Yes they are. I am living, breathing proof that they are.  I do not care about any arguments to the contrary, no one will ever be able to convince me that they are not.  They are, period, point blank. Why … Continue reading →

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