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Category Archives: Infertility
Mindfulness and Connection
Monday, I woke up still depressed, majorly anxious about my appointment with Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan), and to top it all off, I had massive cramps. At the appointment, we talked briefly about the whole Dr King (Integrated Psychiatric … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Infertility, mental health, mental illness, Uncategorized
Tagged anxiety, Big C, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, Deb Spoors, depression, Dialectical behavior therapy, Dr Carolyn King, emotional connection, hope, in vitro fertilization, infertility, Integrated Psychiatric Medicine, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, mindfulness, Monk, Netflix, pain, panic attack, parallel dimension, paranioa, Rebecca Royston, Third Coast Counseling, Weeds
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Reality is Only What You Perceive it to be
Warning: Post may be triggering for some individuals. I woke up around 7:30 this morning in the middle of a panic attack (I absolutely hate when this happens, but at least its been a while). I couldnt stop thinking about … Continue reading
Posted in Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Infertility, mental health, mental illness, Obsession, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, philosophy, reality, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged addiction, agitation, anxiety, Ativan, Ativan withdrawal, benzodiazepine withdrawal, borderline personality disorder, BPD, control, depersonalization, derealization, dissociation, emotionally unstable, fear, infertility, irrational thought, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, panic attack, reality, recovery, Sleep, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, suicide, Thought
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Infertility: The Loss of Those Who Never Existed
I had a rough night last night. It is so bizarre to me (and I really do hate it), that I can be having strong emotions regarding a bunch of different things, and they can all come together, and combine … Continue reading
Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, Health, Infertility, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, chaos, control, DBT, dead inside, Dialectical behavior therapy, Dr Carolyn King, Effexor, emotionally unstable, empty, fear of talking on the phone, financial, Get Me Out of Here: My Recovery from Borderline Personality Disorder, in vitro fertilization, irritated, Jose, Joseph Santoro P.H.D., Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, miracles, nfertility, overwhelmed, panic attack, Paypal, psychotherapy, sadness, SLS Health, stress, The Angry H, withdrawal, Worry
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Thats All Life Really is, You Know? Pure Hell
For a moment it felt like maybe the deep depression that I have been feeling may have lifted slightly. That maybe, I was headed into a little more of a positive phase, but by Thursday night it had become abundantly … Continue reading →