Category Archives: Pit Bull

How Long Before The Fall?

Posted on July 22, 2011 by gypsy116

I have been trying to keep myself busy, in order to stave off the underlying anxiety and hopelessness. For a couple of days it actually worked, , slowly but surely it has found a way to creep back in. Tuesday … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, general life, Health, mental health, mental illness, Music, Obsession, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Pit Bull, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, Television programs, Uncategorized | Tagged agitation, analyze, anger, anxiety, anxoius, Ativan, birthday party, Bones, borderline personality disorder, BPD, break down, change, concert, conscioiusness, control, DBT, DBT Centers of Michigan, depressed, depression, Dexter, Dialectical behavior therapy, Disorders, dog, emotionally unstable, empty, exhaustion, failure, Family, fear, Feeling, financial, giant puppy, Health, hopelessness, Insomnia, irritable, Lorazepam, love, medication, mental health, mental illness, Miniskirt, money, mood, motivated, negative mood, Netflix, nuetral mood, obsess, only get one life, overwhelmed, panic, panic attack, panicky, paranioa, pig tails, Pit Bull, pony tail, positive mood, poverty, psychotherapy, recovery, scared, self hate, self hatred, show, sister, Sleep, Slumlord Radio, social anxiety, terrified, therapy, thinking, wasting life, weight gain, weight loss, workout | 3 Comments

Confliction and Time Constraints

Posted on July 14, 2011 by gypsy116

I was not going to post today because I did not have time, but Im not doing very well and I feel like I need to post. I feel like I need to get some of the stuff inside of … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, general life, Health, mental health, mental illness, Obsession, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Pit Bull, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, Side Effects of Ativan, Television programs, Vetinary Medicine | Tagged agitation, ambivalence, anger, animal emergency hospital, anxiety, anxoius, Arizona, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, Cat, complications, confliction, control, dead inside, depressed, depression, desire to change, Dexter, Disorders, distress, dog, Dr Carolyn King, emotionally unstable, empty, Family, fear, Health, hydrogen peroxide, inability to handle stress, irritabiltiy, Kleenex, lack of control, lack of time, Lorazepam, medication, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, overwhelmed, panic, panic attack, paranioa, pictures, pissed off, Pit Bull, psychiatrist, psychotherapy, rage, sister, So You Think You Can Dance, stress, tension, terrified, Thought, time, time constraints, urinary tract infection, Worry | 4 Comments

I Am Not Alright

Posted on July 1, 2011 by gypsy116

Last night was not nearly as bad as the night before, or as bad as I had anticipated. Toast and I watched So You Think You Can Dance, the finale of The Voice, and then rented a movie and watched … Continue reading →

Posted in Addiction, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, general life, Health, mental health, mental illness, Obsession, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Pit Bull, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Side Effects of Ativan, Suicide, Television programs, Uncategorized | Tagged abandonment issues, addiction, agitation, anger, anticipation, anxiety, anxoius, Ativan, baby mama drama, Bathroom, borderline personality disorder, BPD, burst into tears, commit suicide, control, court, dancer, depressed, depression, Dexter, Disorders, dog, emotionally unstable, emptiness, empty, exhaustion, exotic dancer, Family, family court, fear, fear of abandonment, Health, High school, hospitalization, I am not alright, Insomnia, Lorazepam, medication, mental health, mental illness, more than I could bare, Ohio, overwhelmed, panic, panic attack, paranioa, Pit Bull, psychotherapy, rage, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, separation, sister, Sleep, So You Think You Can Dance, social anxiety, state of panic, stripper, suicidal ideation, suicide, suicide attempt, The Voice, therapy, unbearable, Worry, worthlessness | 6 Comments

From Here to There and Back Again

Posted on June 30, 2011 by gypsy116

Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals, contains some mention of suicidal ideation, and self harm. A bit of forewarning, this post may be somewhat random, my mood has been all over the place. I guess I will … Continue reading →

Posted in Addiction, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, eating disorders, general life, Health, mental health, mental illness, Obsession, Panic Disorders, Pit Bull, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Side Effects of Ativan, Suicide, Television programs, Uncategorized | Tagged abandoned, abandonment issues, addiction, agitation, anger, antisocial personality disorder, anxiety, anxoius, Arizona, Ativan, Bipolar Blogs, blog comments, Bones, borderline personality disorder, BPD, BPD blogs, cant breathe, commitment, compulsive overeating, connected, control, cry, DBT, DBT Centers of Michigan, depressed, depression, Dexter, Dialectical behavior therapy, Disorders, dog, eating disorders, email, emotional triggers, emotionally unstable, emptiness, empty, everyone hates me, exhaustion, Facebook, Family, family portrait, fear, feelings, friends, frustration, happy, Health, hospital, Im falling apart, incredibly sensitive, infertility, Insomnia, intolerable feelings, Lorazepam, love, magical thinking, marriage, medication, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, mind, mommas boy, overwhelmed, panic, panic attack, paranioa, Pit Bull, psychological triggers, psychotherapy, rage, random, random coincidence, recovery, recovery from BPD, relationships, roommate, self harm, self hate, self hatred, self injury, self mutilation, shaking, side effects of Ativan, signs from the universe, sister, Sleep, spinning out of control, suicidal ideation, suicide, taking everything personally, The Voice, therapy, trust, trust issues, unbearable, verge of tears, weight gain, Worry, worthless | 4 Comments

The Cottage

Posted on June 21, 2011 by gypsy116

Wow, it seems like it has been forever since Ive posted. I have to admit that I am feeling a bit (ok, more than a bit) overwhelmed right now. I feel like there has been to much that has happened … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, general life, Health, mental health, mental illness, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Pit Bull, Psychotherapy, relationships, Uncategorized, Vacation | Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, anxoius, art, Bathroom, beach, blog subscriptions, bonfire, borderline personality disorder, BPD, BPD blogs, change, control, cottage, creepy, DBT, depressed, depression, Dexter, Dialectical Behavioral Therapy, Disorders, dog, email, emotionally unstable, empty, excited, exhaustion, Family, fear, Ghost Adventures, happy, Health, Insomnia, labrador retriever, Lake Michigan, lies, Lorazepam, Manistee, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, money, mood, obsesssive thoughts, OCD, Onekama, overwhelmed, panic, panic attack, paranoia, pictures, Pit Bull, Porch, Portage Lake, poverty, promises, psychotherapy, sister, smores, stress, swimming, tattoo artist, torture, vacation, Villisca Ax Murders, weight gain, work | 3 Comments

The Past Few Days – Part 2

Posted on May 12, 2011 by gypsy116

To continue where I left off yesterday, I was starting to have strong feelings of determination, and the desire to change. My mood however, continued to be quite unstable for most of the day (Tuesday). We had a vet appointment … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, Energy, general life, Holistic Health, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, philosophy, Pit Bull, reality, relationships, society, Uncategorized, Vetinary Medicine | Tagged agitation, alternatives to psychiatry, anti inflammatory, anxiety, anxoius, arguement, beliefs, borderline personality disorder, BPD, crippling anxiety, Deb Spoors, depressed, depression, desire to change, determination, Dexter, Disorders, do or die, dog, Dr. Ditanto, emotionally unstable, Energy, Family, Health, health care, holistic, Holistic Veterinary Options, holistic veterinatian, homeopathy, immune system issues, medication, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, misery, nervousness, pain, panic, panic attack, paralyzing fear, Paws With A Cause, physical exam, Pit Bull, positivity, psychotrophic drugs, sex, sexual frustration, side affects, Sleep, social anxiety, strength, stress, suicide, tattoo artist, The Biggest Loser, therapy, warm weather, weight gain, weight loss, workout, worthless | 9 Comments

She Burns Alive

Posted on April 1, 2011 by gypsy116

Toast wrote a poem about us yesterday, after the other nights “episode”. I though I would share it to give you another perspective, and just because I like it, it made me cry as his poems always do. She Burns … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, Phobias, Pit Bull, poetry, prose, relationships, Uncategorized, Vetinary Medicine | Tagged anger, anxiety, anxoius, borderline personality disorder, BPD, burning alive, control, cry, darkness, depressed, depression, Dexter, dog, emotionally unstable, Family, fire, Health, Insomnia, irrational, irrational fear, Lysol, mental health, mental illness, neutered, night, overwhelmed, panic, panic attack, paranioa, phobia, Pit Bull, poem, poetry, prose, rage, veterinarian, violent | 2 Comments

Angry, Anxious, Agitated

Posted on March 13, 2011 by gypsy116

Im still experiencing extreme levels of anxiety. I dont really feel like posting but Im going to anyway. I woke up yesterday panicking again. I had to get up early because my sister and I were supposed to go to … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, Pit Bull, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation | Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, anxoius, awful things, borderline personality disorder, BPD, catastrophizing, control, depression, Dexter, dog, emotionally unstable, gift card, hard time breathing, hypersensitivity, Insomnia, irritated, keep my mind busy, Kohls, library, mall, McDonalds, mental health, mental illness, Old Navy, overwhelmed, panic, panic attack, paranioa, Pit Bull, racing thoughts, rage, resolution, self harm, self injury, self loathing, self mutilation, sensitive, sick, sister, Sleep, social anxiety, stomach flu, strep throat, Worry, worry about the future | 2 Comments

Dreamland

Posted on February 26, 2011 by gypsy116

Ive had a few things happen the last couple of days that were somewhat dramatic, but nothing huge. Ive been having really bizarre dreams lately and a few of them have had an impact on my actual life. I hadnt … Continue reading →

Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Dreams, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, Pit Bull, sex, Uncategorized | Tagged anger, anxiety, astronaut, bizarre dreams, borderline personality disorder, BPD, control, dancer, dead inside, Dexter, dog, drama, Dream, dreams, emotionally unstable, emotoinal walls, Family, friend, friends with benifits, hyperventalating, issues, mad, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, odd child, overly sexual person, panic, panic attack, Pit Bull, rage, realistic dreams, self hatred, sex, Sibling, singer, sister, social anxiety, tattoo, tattoo artist, yelling | Leave a comment

Why Do I Even Care?

Posted on February 22, 2011 by gypsy116

I am completely and utterly overwhelmed today. I wasnt feeling as sick last night (I think maybe the steam from the bath helped loosen some of the mucus in head), so I thought I was getting better. I figured I … Continue reading →

Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, Pit Bull, Uncategorized | Tagged abandonment issues, agitation, anger, anxiety, anxoius, Ava, bath, bawling, borderline personality disorder, BPD, chaos, control, cry, crying, dad, depressed, depression, Dexter, dog, emotionally unstable, exhaustion, Family, Home, hyper, irritable, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, mid-winter break, mom, mucus, niece, overwhelmed, parents, Pit Bull, relationship control phobia, resentment, sick, sinus infection, snow, tired, useless | Leave a comment

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