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I Want To Be The One To Save You

Posted on February 25, 2012 by gypsy116

I want to be the one to save you beautiful child bright light hidden under a darkness a darkness that I know so well in you I see myself in you I see my hell and I just want to … Continue reading →

Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, poetry, prose | Tagged anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, empty, poem, poetry, prose, social anxiety | 12 Comments

The Hunter

Posted on January 8, 2012 by gypsy116

The Hunter hunt me down because I am weak on my soul you must feed build me up to tear me down show me love make sure that I am bound but I cant trust whats in your eyes create … Continue reading →

Posted in poetry, Uncategorized | Tagged addiction, anger, borderline personality disorder, BPD, control, fear of abandonment, mental illness, poem, poetry | 10 Comments

Facebook page, and Brief Update

Posted on August 10, 2011 by gypsy116

Im still not feeling well, Im dizzy and I have a headache, and I am also feeling short on time. Jens not coming over today, so I should have time to get things done, but I am really far behind … Continue reading →

Posted in Art, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, poetry, prose, Uncategorized | Tagged Arts, beauty, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT, Dialectical behavior therapy, Facebook, identity, mental health, mental illness, poem, poetry, positivity, prose, Social Networking, starving artist, therapy, unstable identity | 2 Comments

Music, OCD, and Pandora Radio

Posted on August 7, 2011 by gypsy116

I decided to add a small dose (1/4mg) of Ativan between my 2nd and 3rd doses yesterday, and I didnt experience as much irritability and agitation last night (I did make it to bed by 2am again, by the way). … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, eating disorders, mental health, mental illness, Music, OCD, personality disorders, poetry, prose, reality, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized | Tagged addiction, agitation, anxiety, Ativan, Ativan withdrawal, borderline personality disorder, BPD, calories, control, Disorders, emotionally unstable, invention, irritability, Lorazepam, medication, mental health, mental illness, money, Music, neurotic, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, OCD, Pandora, Pandora Media, Pandora Radio, poem, poetry, prose, self hatred, side effects of Ativan, tattoo artist, weight gain, wieght loss | 7 Comments

More on Mom Through Poetry

Posted on August 4, 2011 by gypsy116

Last night, after Toast read yesterdays post, he started telling me how hes so proud of me. Which I of course didnt understand, what did I do that would make him proud? Why would anyone ever be proud of me? … Continue reading →

Posted in Abuse, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, mental health, mental illness, Mother Issues, Obsession, personality disorders, poetry, prose, relationships, Uncategorized | Tagged abuse, anger, anxiety, Belief, borderline personality disorder, BPD, control, Disorders, emotional abuse, emotionally unstable, empty, Family, mental health, mental illness, Mother, mother issues, overwhelmed, pain, panic, poem, poetry, prose, Psychological abuse, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Thought | 6 Comments

Life Wasted

Posted on June 29, 2011 by gypsy116

Warning: This Post may be triggering for some individuals, there is some mention of suicidal ideation, intent and self harm. 1st, sorry for posting twice today (although Im not sure, this may not end up posted until early tomorrow morning), … Continue reading →

Posted in Addiction, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, eating disorders, general life, Health, Lyrics, mental health, mental illness, Music, Obsession, personality disorders, poetry, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Songs, Suicide, Television programs, Uncategorized | Tagged Adam Levine, addiction, agitation, alcohol, anger, anxiety, anxoius, Atian overdose, Ativan, Beautiful Christina Aguilera, Beverly McClellan, Blood, borderline personality disorder, BPD, change, Christina Aguilera, cocaine, compulsive overeating, confliction, confusion, delusion, depressed, depression, Dia Frampton, Disorders, drug abuse, drugs, emotional triggers, emotionally unstable, empty, escape, Family, fantasize, Health, Inventing Shadows, Javier Colon, life wasted, Lorazepam, lost, Lyrics, mental health, mental illness, Michael Jackson, Music, overdosing, overwhelmed, pain, performance, psychological triggers, psychotherapy, rage, recovery, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, signs from the universe, Singing, sister, social anxiety, Songs, Stitch by Stitch, Substance abuse, suicidal ideation, suicidal intent, suicide, sweet release, The Man In The Mirror, The Voice, therapy, waste of life | 11 Comments

Is Love Only Sweeter When One of us Dies

Posted on June 7, 2011 by gypsy116

Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals. Content contains graphic description of self harm, and some suicidal ideation. Last night, after I got off the computer, I again laid in bed and stared at the wall. Again I … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD Blogs, Depression, eating disorders, general life, Health, Lyrics, mental health, mental illness, Music, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Phobias, poetry, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Showtime shows, Songs, Television programs, Uncategorized, United States of Tara, United States of Tara cancellation | Tagged abandonment issues, abyss, addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, anxoius, bawl, binging, Blood, borderline personality disorder, BPD, BPD blogs, Brie Larson, Burlingame Dairy Dip, cancellation of United States of Tara, comfort, compulsive over eating, computer, control, coping, cry, decision, depressed, depression, despair, devastation, Disorders, Eat me drink me, eating disorders, emotional triggers, emotionally sensitive, emotionally unstable, empathy, emptiness, empty, Family, fear of abandonment, hatred, Health, hopelessness, I want to feel something, ice cream, ignored, incapable of feeling, Insomnia, irrational, issues, Just A Car Crash Away, Kate Gregson, Kier Gilchrist, Lionel Trane, loss of faith, love, Marilyn Manson, marriage, marriage to a person with Borderline Personality Disorder, Marshall Gregson, mental health, mental illness, Michael J. Willett, New York City, no resolution, not fair, overwhelmed, panic, panic attack, paranioa, poetry, protest the cancellation of United States of Tara, psychological triggers, psychotherapy, racing thoughts, rage, Razor, razor blade, relationship, sadness, self harm, self hate, self hatred, self injury, self mutilation, self worth, Showtime, Showtime Networks, sickening, Sleep, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, suicide, surreal, Tara Gregson, therapy, Toni Collette, United States of Tara, wounds | Leave a comment

Pit of Despair

Posted on June 5, 2011 by gypsy116

Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals. Content includes suicidal ideation and intent. I have fallen deeply into my cold, black pit of despair. That place where the only welcome feelings are sorrow, anger, guilt, and shame. I … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, general life, Health, Lyrics, mental health, mental illness, Music, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Phobias, poetry, reality, relationships, Suicide, Uncategorized | Tagged addiction, anger, anxiety, anxoius, Arizona, Ativan, blow, Bones, borderline personality disorder, BPD, cocaine, coke, control, dead inside, depressed, depression, despair, Disorders, drugs, dying inside, emotional pain, emotional trigger, emotionally unstable, empty, Family, fear, fear of abandonment, guilt, Health, hell, hollow, I do not care, Insomnia, Lorazepam, Lyrics, medication, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, money, Music, overwhelmed, pain, poetry, poverty, psychiatrist, psychological triggers, psychotherapy, rage, reality, relationship issues, sadness, scared, Seether, Seether Fine Again, sex, shame, Sleep, sober, social anxiety, Songs, sorrow, Substance abuse, Subway, suicidal ideation, suicidal intent, suicide, therapy, withdrawn | 8 Comments

“Back From the Edge” – Borderline Personality Disorder

Posted on April 30, 2012 by Jaen Wirefly

If you’ve never seen this video you should. It was created by the “Borderline Personality Disorder Resource Center at NewYork-Presbyterian.” It features a variety of patients, both male and female, with commentaries from the top professionals in the BPD field: Otto … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD Blogs, general life, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, poetry, prose, Uncategorized | Tagged addiction, anger, anxiety, anxoius, black void, borderline personality disorder, BPD, control, darkness, death, death without death, depressed, depression, detachment, Disorders, empty, exhaustion, existence, Feeling, Health, hollow, hopelessness, hurt, identity, isolation, Jason Punko, lack of self-worth, life without life, meaning, mental health, mental illness, ontheborderlineblog, outcast, pain, Philosophy, poem, poetry, prose, purpose, stigma, suffering, unliving, unloved, value | 11 Comments

No Immunity

Posted on May 20, 2011 by gypsy116

I would like to start off by apologizing for this post in advance. It will be brief and probably not all that interesting, so, yeah, sorry about that. Im not sure what the hell is going on with me. My … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD Blogs, Energy, general life, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, poetry, prose, reality, sex, Uncategorized | Tagged anxiety, anxoius, blood sugar, borderline personality disorder, BPD, brain fog, Chronic fatigue syndrome, depressed, depression, Disorders, drugged state, emotionally unstable, empty, Health, Immune system, immunity, impure, Insomnia, mental health, mental illness, panic, poem, poetry, prose, sex, sexual frustration, Sleep, weak | 6 Comments

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