Category Archives: reality

The Woman Makes No Sense

Posted on October 7, 2011 by gypsy116

Before getting to the actual topic of this post (which will be Dr King, yet again), I wanted to give you a brief update as to how Ive been since I last posted. I finally forced myself to shower yesterday … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, mental health, mental illness, Psychotherapy, reality, Uncategorized | Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, Dialectical behavior therapy, Dr Carolyn King, Integrated Psychiatric Medicine, Lorazepam, medical records, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, overwhelmed, psychiatrist, psychotherapy, reality | 10 Comments

I Am Not Me Anymore, I Do Not Exist

Posted on September 25, 2011 by gypsy116

After I posted and went through my email last night, I got off the computer and just laid in bed. It was after 8pm, so I knew that I would have to text Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan) as soon … Continue reading →

Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, eating disorders, mental health, mental illness, Movies, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, Uncategorized | Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, Bridesmaids movie, DBT, DBT Centers of Michigan, depression, Dialectical behavior therapy, empty, failure, fear of talking on the phone, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, overwhelmed, panic, Rebecca Royston, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, tattoo artist | 8 Comments

Monday – 4 Makes a Crowd

Posted on September 20, 2011 by gypsy116

Molly (Nuerotherapy Associates of West Michigan) called at around 12pm to change my neurofeedback appointment time from 2pm to 1pm on Tuesday. Our appointment with Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan) wasnt until 4pm, so I wasnt planning on getting up … Continue reading →

Posted in Abuse, Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, Holistic Health, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal | Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, benzodiazepine withdrawal, Big C, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Cente, depression, emotionally unstable, Family, invalidation, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, Molly Raaymakers, Monk, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, overwhelmed, panic, psychotherapy, rage, Rebecca Royston, sister, Sleep, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, validation, Weeds, West Michigan | 3 Comments

Depression Continues to Engulf Me

Posted on September 18, 2011 by gypsy116

Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals. Content contains suicidal ideation and self harm. I am not doing well. The depression that I was feeling yesterday continued and continues to engulf me. I am completely unstable, my mood … Continue reading →

Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, eating disorders, mental health, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Uncategorized | Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, binging, borderline personality disorder, BPD, compulsive overeating, cry, DBT Centers of Michigan, Dialectical behavior therapy, emotionally unstable, empty, fear, Kiera Van Gelder, mental health, mental illness, overwhelmed, psychotherapy, rage, Rebecca Royston, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, The Buddha and The Borderline | 10 Comments

When in Torture, Pure Hell, and Suicide Seems Like the Only Way Out

Posted on September 16, 2011 by gypsy116

“…This is my second encounter with the idea that our internal experience can be characterized by a defining emotion, not just “instability”. As Marsha Linehan says, were like emotional burn victims (Cognitive-Behavioral Treatment of Borderline Personality Disorder). Dr Zanarini ( … Continue reading →

Posted in Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, reality, relationships, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal | Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, Ativan withdrawal, binging, borderline personality disorder, BPD, Cognitive-Behavioral Treatment of Borderline Personality Disorder, compulsive overeating, dead inside, depression, derealization, Dr. Zanarini, eating disorders, Emotion, emotional pain, emotionally unstable, empty, exhaustion, explosive temper, Family, Kiera Van Gelder, Lorazepam, Marsha Linehan, Marsha M. Linehan, mental health, mental illness, Point of Return, psychological pain, self harm, self injury, sister, suicidal ideation, suicide, The Buddha and The Borderline, The pain of bieng borderline: Dysphoric states specific to Borderline Personality Disorder, winter | 1 Comment

What do I Recover?

Posted on September 14, 2011 by gypsy116

“…the whole concept of “recovery” brings up some painful questions. What do I recover? With drug addiction, you hear that you can recover and reclaim your former self, the person you were before you started using. With other psychiatric illnesses, … Continue reading →

Posted in Addiction, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, mental health, mental illness, Obsession, personality disorders, philosophy, reality | Tagged addiction, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, deviantArt, emotionally unstable, empty, Feeling, Gothscene, Kiera Van Gelder, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, overly sexual person, recovery, sister, suicidal ideation, The Buddha and The Borderline, Thought, weight loss | 10 Comments

From Bad to Worse to Being Sedated and Subdued by Hospital Security – Part 4

Posted on September 12, 2011 by gypsy116

Warning : The following 4 part post may be triggering for some individuals, content contains suicidal ideation and self harm. I also ask that there be no judgement of me. I am letting you take a look inside of my … Continue reading →