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Ativan and Psychic Dreams
Warning: Semi-graphic sexual content ahead, just a heads up Wow, a lot has happened over the last few days that I wanted to post about. Im feeling a little overwhelmed with how to go about this. I hate posting about … Continue reading
Happy Anniversary? Yeah, Not So Much
My neurofeedback appointment (Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan) was at 1:00pm this Monday. That means that I had to get up at 11:30am (may not seem like a big deal to some people, but when you rarely make it to … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, anniversary, anxiety, BBC, Bonekickers, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, empty, hypersexuality, Michigan, Molly Raaymakers, neurofeedback, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, relationships, sadness, sexual frustration, West Michigan
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Monday – The Return to Neurofeedback
Well, Ive had a hectic and stressful couple of days. Today hasnt been so bad, other than the fact that I feel like I have a million things to do, I just feel like I am way behind on everything, … Continue reading
I Just Need Some Relief
Im feeling empty and hopeless tonight, agitated. These feelings have been tugging at my insides all day but Ive been fighting them off, ignoring them. I feel so fucking pointless. I dont feel real. I feel like crying. I feel … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Uncategorized
Tagged addiction, agitation, borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, dissociation, empty, overwhelmed, self harm, sex
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My Whole World Crumbles When I Think Hes Gone – Part 2
A continuation from My Whole World Crumbles When I Think Hes Gone. I woke up Monday morning and I had somehow lost all of that anger, that rage that I was feeling towards Toast. I woke up and I just wanted … Continue reading
Where did the time go?
A lot of stuff has happened, mood wise, and “episode” wise since I last posted (I Do Have Control, I Just Have to Choose to Take it). I had planned on posting pretty much all day today (because I havent had … Continue reading
I Do Have Control, I Just Have to Choose to Take it
I just had an experience that is causing me to have the strong urge to cut myself. I have decided to post instead. Sorry if this doesnt make a whole heap of sense, but I basically just need to vent. … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, change, control, deviantArt, Dexter, Fuck, Michigan, recovery, relationships, Thought
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The State of My Heart – Part 2
A continuation from The State of My Heart – Part 1. Toasts agitated and angry mood persisted all the way home, and for a good portion of the rest of the day. He was pretty much just acting like an asshole. … Continue reading
The Fact is That I am Trying, I am Making Changes
Yesterday (Tuesday), I woke up anxious, knowing that I had to go to my DBT skills training group (DBT Centers of Michigan) for the second time. My mom spent most of the time before I had to leave trying to … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, DBT, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, control, DBT, DBT Centers of Michigan, depression, despair, Dialectical behavior therapy, empty, Gabriel Cousens M.D., hopelessness, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, money, overwhelmed, panic, Rebecca Royston
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My Rational Brain Keeps Arguing with My Irrational Brain
Ive been having a pretty emotionally unstable couple of days. Yesterday my emotions ran the gamut, starting with issues I was having from the withdrawal from Ativan, and spiraling out from there. I experienced extreme anxiety, agitation (I was feeling … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, amino acids, anxiety, Ativan, Benzodiazepine withdrawal syndrome, Bisexuality, borderline personality disorder, BPD, irrational fears, irrational thoughts, Lorazepam, Molly Raaymakers, neurofeedback, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, obsession, open relationships, tryptophan, West Michigan
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