Tag Archives: control

That Tricky Little Thing Called Trust

Posted on March 10, 2012 by

I didnt have the best day yesterday and Im not feeling real great today, either physically and psychologically/emotionally.  I suppose I should start at the beginning.  I had skills training group (DBT Centers of Michigan) yesterday.  Being that it was … Continue reading →

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Flip of the Switch, or Learning to Tolerate Anxiety/Fear

Posted on March 8, 2012 by

Tuesday, I of course had my therapy session (DBT Centers of Michigan) as usual (and as usual its kind of a blur, but I will do my best to recount what I remember).  Becky and I talked about my being … Continue reading →

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So Much For Progress – Part 1

Posted on February 15, 2012 by

1st of all, Id just like to say that I feel like a chicken with its head cut off right now.  I have way to much to do, and no time.  I have 3 separate things that I need to … Continue reading →

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No Control, No Options

Posted on February 5, 2012 by

I had a pretty fucked up day yesterday.  Well, it wasnt entirely bad, I enjoyed spending time with my family (mom, dad, Jen, Ava, and I went out to eat), but my mood the rest of the day was definitely … Continue reading →

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Walking the Line

Posted on February 3, 2012 by

Im worried about myself.  Lately I cant seem to tell whether Im coming or going.  One minute it appears that I am trying to slip into a deep depression.  That I am peering over the edge into the void, and … Continue reading →

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But I Heard…

Posted on January 21, 2012 by

It happened again last night.  I had another “episode”.  I do not know what is going on with me.  Ive been doing so well lately, no real (at least not major) “episodes” to speak of, for quite some time.  In … Continue reading →

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Causing the Hammer to Fall, the Other Shoe to Drop

Posted on January 19, 2012 by

Last night I fell off the edge of the map a little.  Had a bit of a “episode”.  I was exhausted and I know that had its part to play, but we didnt end up going to bed until after … Continue reading →

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The Hunter

Posted on January 8, 2012 by

The Hunter hunt me down because I am weak on my soul you must feed build me up to tear me down show me love make sure that I am bound but I cant trust whats in your eyes create … Continue reading →

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Volatile Still

Posted on January 4, 2012 by

Warning:  This post may be triggering for some individuals.  Content contains sexual issues and self harm. So Monday, I posted about how my day had been not so great up until that point, and left things saying that I hoped … Continue reading →

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Volatile

Posted on January 2, 2012 by

I am in an extremely volatile mood, and have been experiencing severe emotional lability since yesterday.  Im feeling beat down both physically and emotionally.  The cause?  Everything, from being sick, lack of sleep, lack of sex, the whole P situation, … Continue reading →

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