Tag Archives: Dexter

Back to the Present – Emetophobia

Posted on December 18, 2011 by

Warning: This post may have a triggering affect on some individuals.  Content contains suicidal ideation. Last night Jen called to ask what we are going to do about Monday?  I said that I didnt know.  She asked where it was … Continue reading →

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I Do Have Control, I Just Have to Choose to Take it

Posted on November 28, 2011 by

I just had an experience that is causing me to have the strong urge to cut myself.  I have decided to post instead.  Sorry if this doesnt make a whole heap of sense, but I basically just need to vent. … Continue reading →

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Sex, Violence, and Frustration

Posted on October 25, 2011 by

Warning: This post may be triggering and/or offensive to some individuals. I showered on Saturday (and shaved and washed my hair).  I hadnt done so, in at least a week.  The fact that Im dealing with a lot of sexual … Continue reading →

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Why Cant I Just Let Go?

Posted on October 18, 2011 by

This post is going to be about an issue (an “episode” really) that started Saturday night, and continued all the way through to Sunday night.  The issue is nothing new, its has to do with things that I am constantly … Continue reading →

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I am Worthless, Pointless, and Hopeless

Posted on October 11, 2011 by

Warning: This post may be triggering to some individuals.  Content contains self harm and suicidal ideation. We didnt get up until about 2:45pm on Sunday.  Toast got out of bed, and I could instantly tell that he was pissed, he … Continue reading →

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Sex and ArtPrize

Posted on October 4, 2011 by

Sunday, my family (my dad, me, Toast, Jen, Matt and Ava) went to ArtPrize (Gabby was with her bio mom, and mom cant do that much walking, she needs new knees, so they werent able to go with us).  It … Continue reading →

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Hate Myself, I Do

Posted on July 23, 2011 by

Last night after reading yesterdays post, Toast asked me how I had made the leap from thinking about how much I love Dexter, to panic and doom and gloom.  I told him it was because it made me think about … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, general life, Health, mental health, mental illness, Obsession, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Phobias, reality, Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 6 Comments

How Long Before The Fall?

Posted on July 22, 2011 by

I have been trying to keep myself busy, in order to stave off the underlying anxiety and hopelessness.  For a couple of days it actually worked, , slowly but surely it has found a way to creep back in.  Tuesday … Continue reading →

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Toast + Gypsy Forever? (Maybe, Sometimes, Yes Forever) – Part 3

Posted on July 15, 2011 by

A continuation from July 15ths post. Our house was going into foreclosure, and we only had couple of months left to stay in the house.  We had decided that we were going to move into my grandmas house (she was … Continue reading →

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Confliction and Time Constraints

Posted on July 14, 2011 by

I was not going to post today because I did not have time, but Im not doing very well and I feel like I need to post.  I feel like I need to get some of the stuff inside of … Continue reading →

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