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Dialectical Behavior Therapy

Posted on January 18, 2012 by gypsy116

Tuesday I had decided that I wanted to talk to my dad about going to see the lung doctor on the way to therapy. I figured it would be easier on me if I tried talking to dad without mom, … Continue reading →

Posted in DBT, Uncategorized | Tagged anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT, DBT Centers of Michigan, Dialectical behavior therapy, Disability, Lung, Michigan, money, psychotherapy, Rebecca Royston, ssi | 8 Comments

The Fact is That I am Trying, I am Making Changes

Posted on November 16, 2011 by gypsy116

Yesterday (Tuesday), I woke up anxious, knowing that I had to go to my DBT skills training group (DBT Centers of Michigan) for the second time. My mom spent most of the time before I had to leave trying to … Continue reading →

Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, DBT, Uncategorized | Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, control, DBT, DBT Centers of Michigan, depression, despair, Dialectical behavior therapy, empty, Gabriel Cousens M.D., hopelessness, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, money, overwhelmed, panic, Rebecca Royston | 12 Comments

10 Day Challenge: Seven Wants

Posted on October 30, 2011 by gypsy116

Seven Wants 1. To be able to “recover”, and live a life that I consider worth living. 2. To be able to have healthy, happy children. 3. For Toast to be able to make a decent living with his art, … Continue reading →

Posted in 10 Day You Challenge, Uncategorized | Tagged A life worth living, artist, Bisexuality, borderline personality disorder, BPD, infertility, love, money, recovery, Wants, weight loss | 8 Comments

Detox, Network 180, and the Bullshit in the System

Posted on September 8, 2011 by gypsy116

Yesterday, we talked to dad about the possibility of me doing neurofeedback. He agreed that it would be a positive thing for me to try and it was decided that I will be trying that. I emailed Becky (DBT Centers … Continue reading →

Posted in Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, community mental health, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal | Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Arbor Circle, Ativan, Ativan withdrawal, benzodiazepine withdrawal, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, detox, Dr Carolyn King, Family, Lorazepam, Medicaid, medication, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, money, Network 180, neurofeedback, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, overwhelmed, Rebecca Royston, side effects of Ativan, sister, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, suicidal intent, Turning Point, West Michigan, withdrawal | 3 Comments

Music, OCD, and Pandora Radio

Posted on August 7, 2011 by gypsy116

I decided to add a small dose (1/4mg) of Ativan between my 2nd and 3rd doses yesterday, and I didnt experience as much irritability and agitation last night (I did make it to bed by 2am again, by the way). … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, eating disorders, mental health, mental illness, Music, OCD, personality disorders, poetry, prose, reality, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized | Tagged addiction, agitation, anxiety, Ativan, Ativan withdrawal, borderline personality disorder, BPD, calories, control, Disorders, emotionally unstable, invention, irritability, Lorazepam, medication, mental health, mental illness, money, Music, neurotic, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, OCD, Pandora, Pandora Media, Pandora Radio, poem, poetry, prose, self hatred, side effects of Ativan, tattoo artist, weight gain, wieght loss | 7 Comments

Friday Night – Suicidal Intent

Posted on August 1, 2011 by gypsy116

I havent had time to post since Friday, so I of course feel like I have way to much to post, and my thoughts are all disorganized. My mood (and corresponding thoughts and emotions) jump around so much that I … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, mental health, mental illness, Obsession, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, reality, relationships, Suicide, Uncategorized | Tagged addiction, agitation, alcohol, anger, anxiety, art, Ativan, Ativan overdose, borderline personality disorder, BPD, cold and distant, control, depression, Disorders, disorganized thoughts, emotionally unstable, empty, fear, Insomnia, Lorazepam, medication, mental health, mental illness, mistake, money, overwhelmed, panic, physical abuse, rage, resolution, Sleep, suicidal ideation, suicidal intent, suicide, Thought, work | Leave a comment

Im Having a Hard Time Seeing Anything but Darkness

Posted on July 29, 2011 by gypsy116

I realize that I did not really give an explanation of some of the things that I was trying to talk to Toast about in my last post. The things that have been bothering me a lot lately, and I … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, mental health, mental illness, Obsession, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, society, Tattoos, Uncategorized | Tagged anger, anxiety, art, borderline personality disorder, BPD, change, control, depression, Dialectical behavior therapy, Disorders, emotionally unstable, empty, Family, financial, guilt, infertility, Insomnia, job, mental health, mental illness, money, overwhelmed, Pain For Sale, panic attack, poverty, psychotherapy, sister, starving artist, suicide, tattoo artist, therapy, Thought, Toastart, work | 5 Comments

How Long Before The Fall?

Posted on July 22, 2011 by gypsy116

I have been trying to keep myself busy, in order to stave off the underlying anxiety and hopelessness. For a couple of days it actually worked, , slowly but surely it has found a way to creep back in. Tuesday … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, general life, Health, mental health, mental illness, Music, Obsession, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Pit Bull, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, Television programs, Uncategorized | Tagged agitation, analyze, anger, anxiety, anxoius, Ativan, birthday party, Bones, borderline personality disorder, BPD, break down, change, concert, conscioiusness, control, DBT, DBT Centers of Michigan, depressed, depression, Dexter, Dialectical behavior therapy, Disorders, dog, emotionally unstable, empty, exhaustion, failure, Family, fear, Feeling, financial, giant puppy, Health, hopelessness, Insomnia, irritable, Lorazepam, love, medication, mental health, mental illness, Miniskirt, money, mood, motivated, negative mood, Netflix, nuetral mood, obsess, only get one life, overwhelmed, panic, panic attack, panicky, paranioa, pig tails, Pit Bull, pony tail, positive mood, poverty, psychotherapy, recovery, scared, self hate, self hatred, show, sister, Sleep, Slumlord Radio, social anxiety, terrified, therapy, thinking, wasting life, weight gain, weight loss, workout | 3 Comments

Food, Control, Concerts, and Miniskirts

Posted on July 19, 2011 by gypsy116

Last night, I had a near “episode”, but I managed to not freak out. Progress? Hmm, perhaps, but I doubt it. I mentioned in a previous post that I have been experiencing a great deal of distress around the lack … Continue reading →

Posted in Addiction, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, eating disorders, general life, Health, mental health, mental illness, Obsession, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, reality, relationships, Uncategorized | Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, anxoius, arguement, Arizona, band, binge, birthday party, borderline personality disorder, bowling, bowling alley, BPD, calories, change, Clothing, compulsive overeating, control, depressed, depression, Disorders, distress, Eating, eating disorders, emotionally unstable, empty, Family, fear, felt like crying, fighting, financial, food samps, guilt, Health, hungry, hypoglycemia, Lorazepam, marriage, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, Miniskirts, money, Music, negative feelings, overwhelmed, pissed off, poverty, progress, promises, protection, rage, relationship, self hate, self hatred, show, sister, Television, weight gain, weight loss, workout | 5 Comments

Toast + Gypsy Forever? (Maybe, Sometimes, Yes Forever) – Part 3

Posted on July 15, 2011 by gypsy116

A continuation from July 15ths post. Our house was going into foreclosure, and we only had couple of months left to stay in the house. We had decided that we were going to move into my grandmas house (she was … Continue reading →

Posted in Addiction, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, general life, Health, mental health, mental illness, Obsession, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, philosophy, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, sex, Sexual Identity, Sexual orientation, society, Suicide, Uncategorized | Tagged addiction, affair, alcohol, alcoholic, anger, anxiety, anxoius, Arizona, belonging, bikini bar, bisexual, bitter, blame, blow, borderline personality disorder, Borderline relationships, BPD, camper, cheating, cocaine, comfortable, communication, control, couch dances, crying myself to sleep, denial, depressed, depression, Dexter, Disorders, dog, drug abuse, drugs, dysfunctional relationship, emotional abuse, emotional pain, emotionally unstable, empty, exhaustion, exotic dancer, Family, fighting, financial, Flesh For the Beast, foreclosure, friends, Grand Rapids, guilt, hate, Health, indiscretion, isolation, lie, love, low self esteem, lying, manipulation, marijuana, marriage, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, money, motor home, myspace, Ohio, open relationship, overwhelmed, Pain For Sale, panic, panic attack, pansexual, paranioa, Pit Bull, porn addiction, positive attitude, poverty, Psychological abuse, psychotherapy, rage, Recreational vehicle, relationships, resentment, seclusion, self esteem, separation, sex, sex on cocaine, sexual issues, smoking, social anxiety, stealing, Strip club, stripper, Substance abuse, suicide, suicide attempt, table dances, tattoo artist, tattooing, therapy, three some, topless dancing, uncomfortable, unemotional sex, unemployment, unhealthy coping methods, unrecognizable to myself, unstable, verbal abuse, whore house, Winnebago | 8 Comments

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