Tag Archives: paranioa

But I Heard…

Posted on January 21, 2012 by

It happened again last night.  I had another “episode”.  I do not know what is going on with me.  Ive been doing so well lately, no real (at least not major) “episodes” to speak of, for quite some time.  In … Continue reading →

Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 17 Comments

Tuesday – DBT and Drama (surprisingly not caused by me)

Posted on January 11, 2012 by

Tuesday, I was instantly in a bad mood.  It started before I even got up.  Toast kissed me before he left for work, and when I looked at the clock I saw that it was only 11am, he doesnt have … Continue reading →

Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 6 Comments

Mindfulness and Connection

Posted on September 27, 2011 by

Monday, I woke up still depressed, majorly anxious about my appointment with Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan), and to top it all off, I had massive cramps.  At the appointment, we talked briefly about the whole Dr King (Integrated Psychiatric … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Infertility, mental health, mental illness, Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 7 Comments

Thats All Life Really is, You Know? Pure Hell

Posted on September 24, 2011 by

For a moment it felt like maybe the deep depression that I have been feeling may have lifted slightly.  That maybe, I was headed into a little more of a positive phase, but by Thursday night it had become abundantly … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, eating disorders, Infertility, mental health, mental illness, Obsession, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, relationships, Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 6 Comments

Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 4

Posted on September 22, 2011 by

A continuation from Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 3 Jen called Toast to ask what had happened (sure that I had flipped out).  It must have been at the same time that Toast was on his way … Continue reading →

Posted in Abuse, Addiction, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Health, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 13 Comments

Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 2

Posted on September 21, 2011 by

A continuation from Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 1 Toast and I sat outside for what felt like for fucking ever.  I was extremely anxious and agitated, my legs bouncing all over the place, rocking back and … Continue reading →

Posted in Abuse, Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Health, mental health, mental illness, OCD, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 8 Comments

From Bad to Worse to Being Sedated and Subdued by Hospital Security – Part 2

Posted on September 11, 2011 by

Warning : The following 4 part post may be triggering for some individuals, content contains suicidal ideation and self harm.  I also ask that there be no judgement of me.  I am letting you take a look inside of my … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Art, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, community mental health, Depression, mental health, mental illness, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 5 Comments

I Really Do Wish I Could Just Disappear

Posted on September 1, 2011 by

Over the past few days my mood has not improved much (or really at all), and my thought processes are still not right.  So, I guess Ill just go ahead and start where we last left off.  Tuesday night, after … Continue reading →

Posted in Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, eating disorders, Lyrics, mental health, mental illness, Music, personality disorders, philosophy, Phobias, reality, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Vlogs, Withdrawal | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 6 Comments

Part 1 – Last Night, and This Morning Leading up to My Appointment

Posted on August 24, 2011 by

I am going to apologize for this post in advance, as I am not exactly in a rational frame of mind at the moment.  I will try to depict the events of last night and today as accurately as I … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Ativan = Agitation?

Posted on August 6, 2011 by

Our power was out for 1/2 the day today.  Im not really sure why, it rained pretty hard earlier, but its not like it was storming or anything.  This caused a great deal of anxiety on and off today.  When … Continue reading →

Posted in Addiction, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, mental health, mental illness, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 4 Comments