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The State of My Heart – Part 1

Posted on November 23, 2011 by

I havent posted since I posted in the middle of Sunday night (early Monday morning), after what happened between Toast and I (read My Heart Hurts So F*cking Bad, I Think Its Shattered, if you dont know what Im talking about).  … Continue reading →

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I Can Hear My Rational Brain, but Right Now its Definitely Not Convincing Me

Posted on November 20, 2011 by

Im sitting here debating on whether or not I want to post.  I think I should but I really do not feel like it, so Im going to try and make this brief, but we shall see, we all know … Continue reading →

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Happy F*cking Holidays

Posted on November 16, 2011 by

On Monday, while I was hanging out with Jen and the girls, someone mentioned that Thanksgiving is next week.  This is a fact that I was purposely pushing out of mind.  Something that I am not at all prepared to … Continue reading →

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Nuerofeedback and DBT

Posted on October 4, 2011 by

Yesterday I had both my nuerofeedback appointment with Molly (Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan) and my therapy appointment with Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan).  So, needless to say, it was a very anxious day for me. On top of all … Continue reading →

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Thats All Life Really is, You Know? Pure Hell

Posted on September 24, 2011 by

For a moment it felt like maybe the deep depression that I have been feeling may have lifted slightly.  That maybe, I was headed into a little more of a positive phase, but by Thursday night it had become abundantly … Continue reading →

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Sunday – Gabbers Birthday

Posted on August 1, 2011 by

Gabbys Birthday isnt actually until Thursday, but we celebrated it on Sunday (that way both Matt and Toast could attend).  We had decided to have cake and ice cream, and open presents over at Jens (me, Toast, Matt, Jen, mom, … Continue reading →

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Im Having a Hard Time Seeing Anything but Darkness

Posted on July 29, 2011 by

I realize that I did not really give an explanation of some of the things that I was trying to talk to Toast about in my last post.  The things that have been bothering me a lot lately, and I … Continue reading →

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How Long Before The Fall?

Posted on July 22, 2011 by

I have been trying to keep myself busy, in order to stave off the underlying anxiety and hopelessness.  For a couple of days it actually worked, , slowly but surely it has found a way to creep back in.  Tuesday … Continue reading →

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Food, Control, Concerts, and Miniskirts

Posted on July 19, 2011 by

Last night, I had a near “episode”, but I managed to not freak out.  Progress?  Hmm, perhaps, but I doubt it.  I mentioned in a previous post that I have been experiencing a great deal of distress around the lack … Continue reading →

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Toast + Gypsy Forever? (Maybe, Sometimes, Yes Forever) – Part 3

Posted on July 15, 2011 by

A continuation from July 15ths post. Our house was going into foreclosure, and we only had couple of months left to stay in the house.  We had decided that we were going to move into my grandmas house (she was … Continue reading →

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