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Blue Genes
My moms side of the family = Crazy in an overly sensitive, but I dont know Im crazy, think Im normal, wouldnt believe you if you smacked me in the face with the truth, take it out on my children … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder
Tagged anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, Emotion, Family, genes, genetics, mental health, over sensitivity, Parenting, rage
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That Tricky Little Thing Called Trust
I didnt have the best day yesterday and Im not feeling real great today, either physically and psychologically/emotionally. I suppose I should start at the beginning. I had skills training group (DBT Centers of Michigan) yesterday. Being that it was … Continue reading
Walking the Line
Im worried about myself. Lately I cant seem to tell whether Im coming or going. One minute it appears that I am trying to slip into a deep depression. That I am peering over the edge into the void, and … Continue reading
But I Heard…
It happened again last night. I had another “episode”. I do not know what is going on with me. Ive been doing so well lately, no real (at least not major) “episodes” to speak of, for quite some time. In … Continue reading
My Whole World Crumbles When I Think Hes Gone – Part 2
A continuation from My Whole World Crumbles When I Think Hes Gone. I woke up Monday morning and I had somehow lost all of that anger, that rage that I was feeling towards Toast. I woke up and I just wanted … Continue reading
The Shadow That I Have Become
Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals. Content contains some mention of self harm, and suicidal ideation. Saturday morning, before Toast left for work, I did not kiss him, tell him I love him, or say goodbye to … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, relationships, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, emotionally unstable, empty, GABA, Gamma-Aminobutyric acid, Horrible Bosses, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, overwhelmed, panic, rage, suicidal ideation
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Hanging on the Edge of Sanity
Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals. Content contains self harm and suicidal ideation. All day Thursday I felt completely drained, exhausted and overwhelmed. My head was all over the place and I was most definitely not doing … Continue reading
Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, mental health, mental illness, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Uncategorized
Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, depression, Dialectical behavior therapy, emotionally unstable, empty, inpatient programs for BPD, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, Molly Raaymakers, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, overwhelmed, panic, panic attack, rage, Rebecca Royston, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, suicidal ideation
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Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 2
A continuation from Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 1 Toast and I sat outside for what felt like for fucking ever. I was extremely anxious and agitated, my legs bouncing all over the place, rocking back and … Continue reading
Posted in Abuse, Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Health, mental health, mental illness, OCD, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, control, cop car, DBT Centers of Michigan, Dr Carolyn King, emotionally unstable, Family, fear of talking on the phone, Fuck, Health, Intergrated Psychiatric Medicine, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, overwhelmed, panic, paranioa, police, psychiatrist, psychotherapy, rage, Rebecca Royston, repetive thoughts, Satan, sister
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Monday – 4 Makes a Crowd
Molly (Nuerotherapy Associates of West Michigan) called at around 12pm to change my neurofeedback appointment time from 2pm to 1pm on Tuesday. Our appointment with Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan) wasnt until 4pm, so I wasnt planning on getting up … Continue reading
Posted in Abuse, Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, Holistic Health, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, benzodiazepine withdrawal, Big C, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Cente, depression, emotionally unstable, Family, invalidation, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, Molly Raaymakers, Monk, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, overwhelmed, panic, psychotherapy, rage, Rebecca Royston, sister, Sleep, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, validation, Weeds, West Michigan
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