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The Irrationality of Depression
Warning: Post may be triggering for some individuals. Content contains self harm urges, ED relapse and suicidal ideation. Yesterday was not fun. 1st, my post yesterday (The Importance of people) turned out a lot more negatively than I had intended it, … Continue reading
Love = Hurt – Part 2
A continuation from Love = Hurt – Part 1. Fast forword to Monday. We had to get up early for neurofeedback (Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan), Toasts allergies were acting up and he didnt feel good, and we had some … Continue reading
The Good In The Bad
Well, I am not feeling any better, in fact Im feeling worse. However, I feel like I need to post about what happened since the last time I did an actual post (That Tricky Little Thing Called Trust), otherwise itll be … Continue reading
That Tricky Little Thing Called Trust
I didnt have the best day yesterday and Im not feeling real great today, either physically and psychologically/emotionally. I suppose I should start at the beginning. I had skills training group (DBT Centers of Michigan) yesterday. Being that it was … Continue reading
I want to give the f*ck up
Ive spent most of the evening feeling sick, feeling panicky, feeling like I just want to give the fuck up and die. I do not want to live in this land of fear anymore. Ive spent all night acutely aware … Continue reading
Therapy – “Episode” Review
Tuesday, I forced myself to get up early (12pm), even though I was still extremely exhausted from the events of Sunday night (So Much For Progress – Parts 1 and 2), and I didnt feel very good (nauseous, sore throat, … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Uncategorized
Tagged anger, anorexia, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, Dialectical behavior therapy, eating disorders, emotionally dysregulated, emotionally unstable, hypoglycemia, Michigan, neurofeedback, Rebecca Royston, relationships, self harm, Thought
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So Much For Progress – Part 1
1st of all, Id just like to say that I feel like a chicken with its head cut off right now. I have way to much to do, and no time. I have 3 separate things that I need to … Continue reading
No Control, No Options
I had a pretty fucked up day yesterday. Well, it wasnt entirely bad, I enjoyed spending time with my family (mom, dad, Jen, Ava, and I went out to eat), but my mood the rest of the day was definitely … Continue reading
Seems Ive Been Hijacked
My emotions seem to have completely hijacked my brain, rendering any and all rational thought useless if not impossible. Needless to say Ive had a hard couple of days. I have however, managed to stave off any major “episodes” despite … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Uncategorized
Tagged anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, Dialectical behavior therapy, emotionally unstable, empty, Fuck, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, panic, relationships, self harm, sex, sexual frustration, suicidal ideation, Thought, West Michigan
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But I Heard…
It happened again last night. I had another “episode”. I do not know what is going on with me. Ive been doing so well lately, no real (at least not major) “episodes” to speak of, for quite some time. In … Continue reading
