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I am Worthless, Pointless, and Hopeless
Warning: This post may be triggering to some individuals. Content contains self harm and suicidal ideation. We didnt get up until about 2:45pm on Sunday. Toast got out of bed, and I could instantly tell that he was pissed, he … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD Blogs, relationships, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, Bones, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, Dexter, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, Razor, Rebecca Royston, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, suicidal ideation
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Hanging on the Edge of Sanity
Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals. Content contains self harm and suicidal ideation. All day Thursday I felt completely drained, exhausted and overwhelmed. My head was all over the place and I was most definitely not doing … Continue reading
Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, mental health, mental illness, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Uncategorized
Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, DBT Centers of Michigan, depression, Dialectical behavior therapy, emotionally unstable, empty, inpatient programs for BPD, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, Molly Raaymakers, Neurotherapy Associates of West Michigan, overwhelmed, panic, panic attack, rage, Rebecca Royston, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, suicidal ideation
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Depression Continues to Engulf Me
Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals. Content contains suicidal ideation and self harm. I am not doing well. The depression that I was feeling yesterday continued and continues to engulf me. I am completely unstable, my mood … Continue reading
Posted in Agitation, Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, eating disorders, mental health, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, anger, anxiety, binging, borderline personality disorder, BPD, compulsive overeating, cry, DBT Centers of Michigan, Dialectical behavior therapy, emotionally unstable, empty, fear, Kiera Van Gelder, mental health, mental illness, overwhelmed, psychotherapy, rage, Rebecca Royston, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, The Buddha and The Borderline
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From Bad to Worse to Being Sedated and Subdued by Hospital Security – Part 3
Warning : The following 4 part post may be triggering for some individuals, content contains suicidal ideation and self harm. I also ask that there be no judgement of me. I am letting you take a look inside of my … Continue reading
Posted in Addiction, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Depression, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged addiction, ambulance, anger, anxiety, Ativan, Ativan overdose, borderline personality disorder, BPD, cops, depression, Emergency room, emotionally unstable, empty, EMTs, Family, Forest View Hospital, Fuck, Lorazepam, mental health, mental illness, rage, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, sister, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, suicide, suicide attempt, taken against my will, Thought
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From Bad to Worse to Being Sedated and Subdued by Hospital Security – Part 2
Warning : The following 4 part post may be triggering for some individuals, content contains suicidal ideation and self harm. I also ask that there be no judgement of me. I am letting you take a look inside of my … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety, Art, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, community mental health, Depression, mental health, mental illness, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Side Effects of Ativan, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged abandonment issues, addiction, anxiety, Ativan, benzodiazepine withdrawal, borderline personality disorder, BPD, community mental health, depression, Diazepam, Dr Carolyn King, emotionally unstable, empty, Family, fear of abandonment, Integrated Ph, Lorazepam, medicall malpractice lawsuit, mental health, mental illness, Monk, Network 180, overwhelmed, panic, paranioa, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, sister, social anxiety, suicidal ideation, suicide, Thought, True Blood, Turning Point detox, Valium
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From Bad to Worse to Being Sedated and Subdued by Hospital Security – Part 1
Warning : The following 4 part post may be triggering for some individuals, content contains suicidal ideation and self harm. I also ask that there be no judgement of me. I am letting you take a look inside of my … Continue reading
Posted in Abuse, Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Beliefs, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, community mental health, Depression, mental health, mental illness, Obsession, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, reality, relationships, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Side Effects of Ativan, Suicide, Uncategorized, Withdrawal
Tagged abandonment issues, addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, control, depression, deviantArt, Disorders, dog, emotionally unstable, empty, exhaustion, Family, fear of abandonment, frantic efforts to avoid real of imaginged abandonment, gothscene.com, irrational thought, Lorazepam, manuipulation, mental health, mental illness, Monk, overwhelmed, rage, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, sister, suicidal ideation, suicide, Thought, Understanding
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Monday – Movie Rentals and Self Harm
Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals, content contains description of self harm. I had planned on sleeping most of the day, seeing as to how I didnt get to sleep until 7am. Thats not how it worked … Continue reading
Posted in Addiction, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, Cocaine, Depression, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, reality, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, sex, Uncategorized
Tagged addiction, agitation, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, cake, cry, dead inside, depression, Eating, emotionally unstable, empty, exhaustion, Family, mental health, mental illness, panic, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, sex
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Part 2 – The Appointment and the Aftermath So Far
Warning : Post may be triggering for some individuals. Contains mention of self harm and suicidal ideation. A continuation from Part 1 – Last Night and This Morning Leading up to My Appointment Now from this point on, my memory … Continue reading
Posted in Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Art, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, Depression, mental health, mental illness, Panic Disorders, personality disorders, Psychotherapy, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Side Effects of Ativan, Suicide, Uncategorized
Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, Ativan tolerance, borderline personality disorder, BPD, control, depression, Disorders, Dr Carolyn King, emotionally unstable, empty, Family, healthy coping mechanisms, Lorazepam, medication, mental health, mental illness, overwhelmed, panic, psychiatrist, psychotherapy, rage, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Singing, sister, social anxiety, Subway, suicidal ideation, suicide, therapy, withdrawal
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The B-Side, a.k.a The Bit of Hope that Invaded My Psyche
Monday morning, I woke up determined not to take extra Ativan before my appointment with Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan). I was exhausted from the night before, did not feel good, and did not want to make everything worse (remeber … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, DBT, mental health, mental illness, Uncategorized
Tagged agitation, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, change, DBT, DBT Centers of Michigan, Deb Spoors, Dialectical behavior therapy, emotionally unstable, exhaustion, headache, Health, honesty, Lorazepam, masterbation, mental health, mental illness, overwhelmed, positivity, psychotherapy, Rebecca Royston, recovery, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, therapy, Thought
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The A-Side, a.k.a. I Am the Drama
Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals. Content contains suicidal ideation and description of self harm. After I finished posting on Sunday, the agitation I was feeling began growing, and ended up at unbearable levels. Everything started to … Continue reading
Posted in Addiction, Agitation, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD and me, BPD Blogs, mental health, mental illness, personality disorders, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Uncategorized
Tagged addiction, agitation, anger, anxiety, Ativan, borderline personality disorder, BPD, cocaine, drugs, emotional triggers, emotionally unstable, empty, Get Me Out of Here: My Recovery from Borderline Personality Disorder, hate, hopeless, Lorazepam, marijuana, mental health, mental illness, Monk, overwhelmed, psychological triggers, rage, self harm, self injury, self mutilation, Sleep, Substance abuse, suicidal ideation, Thought, True Blood
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