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Sex, My Broken Brain, and Shame (or My Sordid Past and How I Got Here) – Part 3
A continuation from Sex, My Broken Brain, and Shame (or My Sordid Past and How I Got Here) – Part 2. Finally, the conversation that sparked all of this. While Toast was at work Tuesday, I read something of a … Continue reading
Sex, My Broken Brain, and Shame (or My Sordid Past and How I Got Here) – Part 2
A continuation from Sex, My Broken Brain, and Shame (or My Sordid Past and How I Got Here) – Part 1. There were years of both of us lying, cheating, trying to fix the relationship, fucking it up even more, … Continue reading
Sex, My Broken Brain, and Shame (or My Sordid Past and How I Got Here) – Part 1
1st off, the topics of discussion in this post will include sex, masturbation, and porn (and a some nudity). So, if your are easily offended by these things, this is probably not the post for you. Also, what Im about … Continue reading
My Personal Planes of Existence,Sex, Music, Dissociation
The past 2 nights Toast and I have had fanfuckingtastic sex. If youve followed my blog for very long, you know that over the last several years, I have had some major issues with sex. Very long story, but because … Continue reading
Seems Ive Been Hijacked
My emotions seem to have completely hijacked my brain, rendering any and all rational thought useless if not impossible. Needless to say Ive had a hard couple of days. I have however, managed to stave off any major “episodes” despite … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Uncategorized
Tagged anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, Dialectical behavior therapy, emotionally unstable, empty, Fuck, mental health, mental illness, Michigan, panic, relationships, self harm, sex, sexual frustration, suicidal ideation, Thought, West Michigan
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DBT Tuesday
Therapy started out in the conference room for skills training. I was extremely anxious (probably because I hadnt done my homework, and had engaged in self harm). Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan) didnt say anything about a new group starting … Continue reading
Volatile Still
Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals. Content contains sexual issues and self harm. So Monday, I posted about how my day had been not so great up until that point, and left things saying that I hoped … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Uncategorized
Tagged borderline personality disorder, BPD, control, depression, empty, panic, panic attack, sex, Sexual intercourse
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Volatile
I am in an extremely volatile mood, and have been experiencing severe emotional lability since yesterday. Im feeling beat down both physically and emotionally. The cause? Everything, from being sick, lack of sleep, lack of sex, the whole P situation, … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Uncategorized
Tagged Arizona, borderline personality disorder, control, DBT Centers of Michigan, Dialectical behavior therapy, eating disorders, emotional eating, ice cream, Medium, Michigan, Moose Tracks, Netflix, panic attack, Rebecca Royston, sex
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Glutton for Punishment – Part 4
A continuation from Glutton for Punishment – Part 3. A short while later, Toast and I moved to Arizona. While I was not well while we were there (due to issues with our roommate in our 1st apartment, and then … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Uncategorized
Tagged anger, Arizona, borderline personality disorder, BPD, confusion, control, depression, dishonesty, Glutton for Punishment, Interpersonal relationship, Michigan, relationships, sadness, sex, sexual frustration, toxic relationships
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Glutton for Punishment – Part 3
A continuation from Glutton for Punishment – Part 2. Very shortly after P left, Toast came home and we had a tearful reunion, followed by uncomfortable sex, at least for me (This is when my issues with sex started. They … Continue reading
