Tag Archives: Sleep

Dr King is Absolutely F*cking Psychotic – Part 1

Posted on September 21, 2011 by

Oh my god, you guys are literally not going to believe what happened today, but I suppose that I should start at the beginning.  1st, I dont know if I was just extremely exhausted (as in even more extremely exhausted … Continue reading →

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Monday – 4 Makes a Crowd

Posted on September 20, 2011 by

Molly (Nuerotherapy Associates of West Michigan) called at around 12pm to change my neurofeedback appointment time from 2pm to 1pm on Tuesday.  Our appointment with Becky (DBT Centers of Michigan) wasnt until 4pm, so I wasnt planning on getting up … Continue reading →

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Reality is Only What You Perceive it to be

Posted on September 3, 2011 by

Warning:  Post may be triggering for some individuals. I woke up around 7:30 this morning in the middle of a panic attack (I absolutely hate when this happens, but at least its been a while).  I couldnt stop thinking about … Continue reading →

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I Really Do Wish I Could Just Disappear

Posted on September 1, 2011 by

Over the past few days my mood has not improved much (or really at all), and my thought processes are still not right.  So, I guess Ill just go ahead and start where we last left off.  Tuesday night, after … Continue reading →

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The A-Side, a.k.a. I Am the Drama

Posted on August 9, 2011 by

Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals.  Content contains suicidal ideation and description of self harm. After I finished posting on Sunday, the agitation I was feeling began growing, and ended up at unbearable levels.  Everything started to … Continue reading →

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Ativan = Agitation?

Posted on August 6, 2011 by

Our power was out for 1/2 the day today.  Im not really sure why, it rained pretty hard earlier, but its not like it was storming or anything.  This caused a great deal of anxiety on and off today.  When … Continue reading →

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Friday Night – Suicidal Intent

Posted on August 1, 2011 by

I havent had time to post since Friday, so I of course feel like I have way to much to post, and my thoughts are all disorganized.  My mood (and corresponding thoughts and emotions) jump around so much that I … Continue reading →

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I Just Feel Helpless, Hopeless

Posted on July 29, 2011 by

Just thinking about writing this post is overwhelming me right now.  I didnt have time to post yesterday so now I feel like I have no idea where to begin, or how to say what it is that I want … Continue reading →

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Obviously I Need A Break

Posted on July 26, 2011 by

Last night, Im not sure exactly what my deal was, but apparently I was just way to overwhelmed.  We watched Weeds and The Big C, and then were going to watch the last 2 episodes of season 5 of Bones … Continue reading →

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Gravity

Posted on July 25, 2011 by

Warning: This post may be triggering for some individuals.  Content contains self harm, and suicidal ideation. When I posted Saturday night, after I had decided not to go to the show, I wasnt completely honest with you.  Well, it wasnt … Continue reading →

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